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I felt similarly re: the voyeuristic quality when I learned it happened to the actor, who had also written the series. I understand how his on-stage breakdown happened, followed by interviews with him about the experience. I even understand the idea of the 1-man show as perhaps a learning/educational example for people (not sure I'm capturing my thought well here). But to decide that you yourself not only want to write what happened to you, but also want to re-enact it and have everyone in the world experience that with you- or at the least watch you essentially experience being traumatized- Well there's something exhibitionist about that there, isn't there?Like I've experienced some mild trauma- I've never felt the need to have people LIVE that with me, to watch me feel traumatized.

I absolutely LOVED this series. I work in mental health, and think Donny's behaviors were very realistic for someone who's had trauma together with feelings of invalidation. All the things that Teri said rang true: part of him enjoyed the attention of being stalked, part of him needed the drama, part of him was a shit human being that didn't see her (Teri) as a full woman, and didn't respect her need to no longer be closeted and afraid. Even Donny going back to the "original" abuser (as far as we know), isn't crazy. maybe he thought he was going to tell him off and get closure, and then found the guy charming and validating, "and this time will be different." I also think people like Darien don't always know they're even being abusive in situations like these. Donny kept going back, kept acting cheerful, gave no clear signs, etc. We know what we know bc we saw Donny's perspective. But Darian was also on drugs with Donny while doing these things. not "excusing" his behavior, I'm just saying that i enjoyed just how complex this show made every character.

I finally got to watch this episode last night, and I actually think Jimmy just has a really bad case of "foot-in-mouth" syndrome. He says everything that pops into his head because he trusts Chelsea and feels close to her, and doesn't think about HER perspective. i am 1000% like him in this regard. But he was EAGER and clearly excited when they were in bed together. It was all over his face. Yet Chelsea kept negging herself and being the downer. She has really poor self-esteem. I caught her covering her belly when they met (I think he spun her?), and she slouches and sits in ways to make herself look smaller. Trevor was right- she would have said yes to whoever asked first. I think Jimmy is anxious about being so exposed on camera too. did you see him cover his nuts when he took his shorts off? even though he still had undies on that were pretty much same cut/fit as the shorts!

I was really sad that this title wasn't a reference to Matthew going to get whatsherface who left after hearing he had pre-proposed to A.D. using exact words said to her. I want to see him awkwardly pissing everyone off on the honeymoon shows!

That was the season finale?? it was such a bizarre episode. Definitely felt like a clear metaphor for Whitney in labor, complete with her trying to pull Asher with the towel (aka umbilical cord). I was expecting him to get out of the house or float away and we'd cut to the baby fully born with both parents present. I suppose what made this episode most interesting is not knowing whether the events were supposed to be real or dream/fantasy.

I just binged this show over the weekend. Can "Uncomfortable" be a genre? Neither funny nor dramatic, I have just found this show to be unrelentingly tense and uncomfortable, which I think is compelling in its own right. It's almost like a highly funded student film or a thought experiment. The acting is interesting, as this awkwardness is probably how we all present in real life....

Did anyone else have the feeling something ominous was about to happen in this season finale? Charlie outside in the dark, finger hovering over "send" for his "i love you text." They've said it to each other already, right? No reason to hover. I kept thinking he was about to get hit by a car or something. driven by Ben.

I've kind of had the impression that Irina is the mean girl, and Micah just finds her antics amusing. I appreciated that she acknowledged her own wrong-doing by not shutting Irina down while they were in the pods and Irina was antagonizing all the other girls. So I don't think Micah is a shit-stirrer on her own, but she's also not above laughing when someone else stirs it. Where I think Micah's flirtiness with Kwame was different than Irina's flirtiness with Paul is that Micah wasn't planning on pursuing anything with Kwame, and she certainly didn't go and tell Chelsea that she was interested in Kwame. Irina broke up with her dude (Zack), had been flirting with another dude (Paul) before that, and then told her friend that she was interested in the friend's dude (Paul). Irina made it clear that she was interested in pursuing Paul, where Micah was still being flirty with an "old flame" but planned to stay with her guy only.

i saw it as "payback" for Cynthia intervening with Gil at the school (when Cynthia saw him getting rough with her). I think she legitimately thought she was helping Cynthia. as for "proof," I wouldn't be shocked if they had a baby camera kind of setup in there. You wouldn't be able to hear alarms in all rooms of the house.

When Nick and June were split up, and then June was taken off the bus, I was CERTAIN that Serena was going to kill Luke in front of her. That would be "eye for an eye" behavior, right? But as soon as Serena had the gun, I knew either she would shoot Ezra, or June would somehow get the gun and shoot Ezra. I think Serena dying in labor and June keeping the baby would be some just kismet. Finally, I loved June's prayer for the girls at the end. I'm not a religious person, in part because i so often see selfishness in the guise of religion. Altruistic prayers for your children (and others) to have a peace and safety is how I imagine religion SHOULD be.

it's explicitly stated in the book, and I believe in season 1 also. It's why the supermarkets have symbols instead of words on all the food, and why allowing June to read a magazine and to play scrabble was so exhilarating to her in the moment. I don't remember the details, but recall TV show Fred also shot Serena down at least once about offering to help him write something or to look something up online, and Serena was very upset that she went from writing a book that helped create Gilead to not being allowed to read/write in Gilead- she seemed to have expected to be an exception to the rules rather than subjugated like all the other women.

This reminds me a lot of how my father described Cuba, where he is from. Tourists to Cuba were only allowed to go to certain places, where things looked great and people seemed healthy. Actual Cuban citizens (that were not part of the dictatorship itself) lived in squalor, received rancid food rations, were not allowed to go to tourist areas, they were not allowed to eat beef because that was for tourists, and even had to bring their own bedding and sometimes even their own food to the hospitals. Gilead would likely do the same- tourists see the Commanders mansions, and the kids at their school playgrounds, and get a trip to the theatre, while the handmaids are raped and hung on walls, and others get sent to the Colonies...

Totally agree with this, especially together with Tuello's comments to June at the end. Canada isn't even a little bit sad that Fred is dead- they just couldn't diplomatically do it themselves. Like the US wouldn't have been hard-pressed to convict someone of murder had they killed Bin Laden in International Waters. "Oh gosh, the terrorist is dead? Sure sucks it didn't happen on our soil or we TOTALLY would have done something about it..."

Kyle made such a great impression. The stuff I've read about him is scary though. Deb dodged a bullet (or a roofy), and now doesn't have to be "tortured" about who to choose. I TOTALLY agree about the 3 Casa Amor girls. Even funnier is that 2 are from NY, and one from NJ, and my husband keeps pointing out the wrong one as being from NJ. I thought the 3 of them were similar to Kat from the villa also, so it's funny that Chazz seems to have shown interest in all 4 of the them. He certainly has a type. Kat is adorable and bubbly, but she seems like a little "too much." not drama, like plastic orange sydney, but like a little sister with ADHD. I checked out one of her mukbang videos and it was super disappointing from what I expected. She didn't come close to finishing, was completely neat eating also. It really was just like sharing a meal with someone, not the messy binge I had expected.

My theories: Krepps is Glitter Guy but not the killer: he texted the crew to get out last season (even though we don't know why). He suspected the crew knew SOMETHING they weren't sharing, and when THEY reached out to him thinking he was the other detective, he took advantage by making arrangements to get the evidence they had. He's also got glitter and a shoulder injury. Seems too far to go to just fake us out. BUT, he was also the one to tell them she was away on maternity leave, so why would he blow his own cover to get the evidence? Lion King actor just happened to sneeze when Lucy heard him. They seem to be able to hear through the walls in those corridors (although no one can hear the corridors through the walls?). He's a fluke. Could Tina Fey's character be the killer, framing the others? seems like a long shot,but her assistant really felt she was capable of anything. Alternatively, could she just be the one setting them up, so that she can have a better podcast? So I guess I have no idea who the killer is. Maybe it's the "dead" painter (Rose?). Charles' dad is really Bunny's dad, and Rose is getting her final revenge?

I can see that to some extent. Billy was the Samantha, Stanley was Charlotte, was Suzanne the Miranda? And obviously Michael was SJP. honestly though, I think Michael had more motivation for his behaviors, and more character growth in one season than we ever saw in Sex and the City. The other characters were largely there as a reflecting pool for his growth though. They weren't complete caricatures, but they also weren't fully fleshed out. I still loved the show though.

I honestly felt that had we left out the last scene (Colin in the apartment, wanting Michael back), this would have been a perfect one-season series. I loved the whole thing, and Michael's whole journey. He went from blind-sided and self-involved, to learning how to be independent and there for others. I honestly had never realized just how good an actor NPH was. From the point of view of a cis-white(ish)-bi-female in a monogomous hetero relationship, I can't comment on how realistic the portrayal of gay lifestyle was on the show, but it definitely reflected the life I saw a few of my gay male friends live in NYC while I was in school. Including the Grindr app. I very clearly recall going to a club with a friend, and him coming back from the bathroom telling me how he had just gotten a BJ from someone while back there. I know that life isn't all gay men by any means, but it's also not a fallacy among gay men in NYC.

I agree. I was trying to figure out why people thought Mabel didn't "Understand" Lucy? She understood perfectly- Lucy was just being REALLY creepy. It honestly made me question LUCY's character. Not that she would murder, but was she up to some "no good" and was somehow involved as a result.

Week 2 of this show is soooo much better than week 1. Current Faves: Sereniti, Tyler, Chazz, Bria, and Timmy Can't go away fast enough for me: Isaih and Sydney. Sydney is orange, and her lips are not only crazy, but she also seems to lipstick outside the lines like a toddler. and WTF is she wearing? in every scene she looks like a bad TV prostitute to me! Isaiah is just angry bad news. They're on a dating show where everyone makes out with everyone else. Sydney did not pick herself to couple up with what's his face (Andy). But Isaiah and his "you got something to tell me?" over and over and over again, while Andy is like "I have no idea what you're mad at besides me picking Sydney, but you already know I did that"- if you want to confront someone on something, just tell them what you're confronting him on. Trying to make someone guess at what they did that you got mad at is juvenile and ineffective. Middle of the road: Felipe and Courtney are non-entities with no drama. I like them both, but zzzz..... Deb is actually pretty cute, but Jesse just rubs me wrong.... Zeta- she seems reactive, but with insight. I didn't like how she called out Timmy and walked off, but I did like how she caught herself and came to him to say she had behaved badly without anyone else calling her out on it (that we saw) or without a big fallout between them. (and Andy and Madi- I forget they existed until i went back to edit something about sydney!!) For the elimination, I think it would be best for Zeta to go, because I don't think anyone is interested in her, and several are interested in Tyler. For ratings, Zeta might be better to stay for the drama she'll bring.

This has been one of me and my husband's favorite trash shows since COVID, but the first week of this season was almost unbearable. These may actually be the dumbest and most difficult to understand group of reality show contestants I've ever seen. Is the new Tarzan guy (forgot his name already) the only one of the entire group that has graduated college too? Deb may actually be my favorite girl personality-wise, and she had to count on her fingers to subtract 2 from 7. Not even exaggerating- she did this in the talking head after one of the games where James (her guy interest) kissed all 7 girls. We'll probably watch this week too, but if they don't get some more brain cells into the mix, we might be out.

lots of us doctor-moms don't have babies until late 30s or early 40s bc of the demands of med school, residency, and fellowship. I had 10years of school/training after graduating college, and didn't even get married until I was already 40 (baby at 42). Also, re: Rebecca's memories being so crystal clear with dementia on her deathbed- 1- none of us knows what people experience in their minds in the moments before death. We are seeing her experience her children in "real time," but we really have know idea. and 2- when I worked at a nursing home with a dementia unit, one of the "signs" we'd see of impending death was sudden clarity. For example, the old combative lady who could speak and hadn't eaten in days suddenly would know all her nurses' names and eat all her dinner, then be found dead the next morning. Also- 3- earlier memories are the last to go for people with Alzheimer's with the most recent information being lost first. So kids will be forgotten before husbands and parents. You may remember your home address from 10yo, but not where you lived for decades as an adult.

I just started this yesterday, and watched the first 3 episodes back to back. It started a little slow, and perhaps because Im watching dubbed, I had a hard time at the beginning telling whether this was going to be a dramatic, scary show, or a campy zombie show. Bad dubbing really makes it hard to know sometimes. As it's found and defined itself more clearly, I am definitely loving it now, and have some thoughts. 1. Chicken-mom: was she really so clueless that as the city is being evacuated for Zombies, she heads out on her own, and tries to chit chat with a zombie just because she recognizes him? No thoughts of observing the scene before YELLING to someone, even if he weren't a zombie? 2. Chicken-son: at first I was thinking he had a crush on On-Jon, but now I'm wondering if he and On-Jon's crush are gay and have a thing for each other? (sorry I can't remember most people's name even on shows with traditional American names!) 3. Zombie Dad/Science Teacher and virus lore: I'm really enjoying the context of how the virus came out and how it works (triggered by fear response interacting with the hormone). Of course everyone we've seen turn for the most part has turned right away because they were terrified and being attacked. But with On-Jon's best friend (Izak?) and Chicken-son's friend "Welfy," they both seemed to turn very gradually, perhaps because they were not in an acute state of fight/flight as the people who turned completely while being attacked. This also may explain why benzodiazepines were helping the son and the first girl at school that the science teacher were giving shots to. It calmed their fear and muted the hormone reaction to rage. 4. The zombie kids at the playground were kind of hilarious to me, ganging up on the livestreaming guy who got in over his head. 5. I'm guessing On-Jon, her dad, and the cop that got out as Science Teacher died holding back zombies will be our heroes for the series. At least one of them will die, and I feel like it will be On-Jon's dad, while saving her. Looking forward to watching more!! They're long episodes, so I won't get to watch another 3 in a row :(

also, I don't like that they seem to be setting up a love triangle* between Doug, Jas, and Kiara. I understood Doug being vague about visiting his "friend" that was having a tough time, bc he didn't want to upset K or cause jealousy, but then to reject her desire to be exclusive seemed out of character unless he was thinking of trying to get back together with Jas. *or would this be a love square, with Doug, Jas, Des, and Kiara all in the mix?

I think the show forgot that Vivek is supposed to be Indian, and not Hispanic/Latino? They had him call Ana "Bonboncita" several times and comment "in my language that means little candy." But Spanish is NOT his language on the show. I can fanwank that in the dream he was speaking spanish because it was ana's dream. But the actor is half-Filipino, and the character is Indian-descent with Indian-from-India parents. Unless I misunderstood and he was being creepy and said "in OUR language," meaning his and Ana's?

something that just came to mind to me now is that in the first game, your success did not cause the death of other players. The same with the honeycomb game. So when the players left and then chose to come back, they came back knowing that THEY could die, not knowing that their winning could cause the death of others. Those are two very different experiences. The way it seemed initially was that if someone died, the money was added to the bank and divided amongst all those remaining. Sure, some (like snakeneck) may have thought to themselves that if they killed others, they'd make more money; But I think most people chose to go back feeling that they were so desparate that if they died losing a game, then fine, but they were under the impression that they at least COULD win, together with others. Gi-Hun didn't go back "knowing" that he would have to be responsible for anyone else's death. In fact, part of the reason he went back was so that HE wouldn't be responsible for his mother's death after having spent all her money (and yes, he could have taken the new husband's money, but he was at least a good enough dad that he at least WANTED to be able to see his daughter in the future). Like I'm 100% sure that the married couple that came back had no idea that they couldn't BOTH win in the end.