I really need my preverts today.
Yesterday I didn't go into work because the day before I ended up coming home and bawling my eyes out so much when I woke up in the morning they were super swollen and I looked terrible. So I took a mental health day. It's just constant criticism over there. It's always everything that I forget to do that is being pointed out to me multiple times a day, but never anything encouraging. And it's making any confidence I have or self-esteem completely disappear.
And today I woke up to find that my Polish grandmother passed away last night in her nursing home in Toronto. She had Alzheimer's for 13 years and I hadn't seen her in at least 5 years. Apparently, she had been sick for a few days and her blood pressure got really low and she just passed away. They didn't even treat her at the hospital because there were so many Covid cases, so they doctors at the residence treated her there instead.
So I called in sick to work for tomorrow too, although the dentist had the audacity to ask if I was coming in or not. Like no, my grandma died, asshat.
We can't even have a funeral because we're not allowed to cross the boarder due to the Corona Virus so apparently she is just going to be send directly to be cremated and if this virus ever goes away, we will hold a vigil for her.
Things just seem to be getting worse as the months go by rather than better, and I'm terrified for 2021.