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I'm 35 and I receive SSI (not disability because I have never been able to work enough to qualify). I have a litany of health issues that mainly stem from my stomach and digestive system, which all my issues started when I was born with a major birth defect. I also have crippling anxiety and depression. I applied for disability on my own about 12 years ago and was approved immediately. I still hate telling people I get SSI though because technically I *look* healthy. I'm not overweight, I am able to do some activities, but I am on TPN because I cannot eat like a normal person. It's really rough because SSI doesn't pay much, at all. I have to live with my parents because I can't afford to rent my own place. I also get food stamps, but that isn't an exorbitant amount either because I'm just a single person. Families get way more. I wish I was able to work. I went to school to become a medical assistant and every time I did get a job my health got in the way and I would get fired. I also have to go to at least 2 doctor appointments every week, so it's hard working in the medical field because doctors' offices are only open pretty much at the same time. If I'm working I can't just leave to go to my appointments all the time. It's just a really shitty situation and I wish my life was different....but sadly you can't change what you can't change.

I had a gastrojejunostomy/duodenojejunostomy (basically stomach and intestinal surgeries) last year and was on a Dilaudid pump for 10 days and I was allowed to walk the halls by myself. No walker either. But I only weigh like 120lbs. I was also not considered a fall risk. Funny story while I was hospitalized too....I was NPO (no food/drink) and my boyfriend had come to visit so we went down to the cafe. I guess I had positioned my IV pump behind a pillar and as my man was sitting there eating I was all drooling over his food saying it looked really good and I guess some women at another table overheard me, didn't see the IV pole so I guess they assumed my boyfriend was being an asshole and just not buying me food. We ran into them at the elevators and that's when the one woman was like "OMG now I get why you weren't eating!!" I had a good laugh about it. But seriously, being NPO for over a week sucks ass. I was amazed at how quickly people on this show are allowed to eat, even if it's just broth and jello. I was lucky to get cough syrup cap sized cups of water to sip on.

I don't get why Dwight didn't try and kill Negan when all the gunfire started, if he was serious about hating him at the beginning. Why not just switch sides? Though I still think Darryl should have killed him at the start. He's useless, and an asshole.

I feel like I could have started watching at like 10 and have been totally up to speed. The first hour was a waste.

YES!!!

So the season starts and ends with Lucille.

Finally!!!

So GPK are a Savior Outpost now? WTF.

I'm also over the Sasha and Abraham flashbacks, or whatever is going on.

Is it just me or is this episode going far too slow? Maybe it's all the commercials.

Anyone else catch that Dr Now covered his stethoscope with a glove when listening to Steven's heart but didn't with Justin? I bet Steven smelled soooo bad due to lack of hygiene. I wouldn't want those cooties either!

Dunno. Wouldn't surprise me if one or even both were held back a year here or there. They don't seem to be the brightest pair.

Both boys dropped out of high school. Saw that one coming a mile away.

ZOMG! Dr Now telling Steven he would have him dropped off at a homeless shelter was priceless!!!

I started watching this late cos I just saw it on my DVR (and I can FFW through commercials) but damn. Steven is a POS. I feel bad for Justin because I think with some therapy and modifying his diet he could really make good progress. Steven, on the other hand, is a waste of space. Whining about the nurses not giving him his pain meds fast enough? Please. He doesn't seem to be in any real pain at all.

Seriously I wish PA would move along in legalizing MMJ. From what I've heard it has passed but it's not actually available yet. I have so many issues that MMJ would help with and my primary doc has even told me I'd be one of her first patients to refer to someone who can prescribe the card (apparently docs here will have to go through a lot of hoops to become an MMJ script writer). One question though, to those who use MMJ....is it expensive at dispensaries? I've never been to one and the occasional time I smoke weed it's stuff my boyfriend gets. I've never actually paid for it.

Way to go Scheana. It makes me happy to see she had the balls to confront Shay. And even though she said she will never truly know if he's using again....she knows enough. And it takes a strong person to walk away. I doubt this is what either of them wanted, but it had to be done. And to any guy who might clean out my bank account.....oh you best believe I wouldn't be that nice and calm about it. I don't care where the money went. Fuck no to that horseshit. Shared account or not one party does not get to spend damn near every penny without having a financial "state of the union" conversation. It's one thing to agree, but we all know he did it behind Scheana's back.

To me that sounds awesome. I used to go with my dad's ex girlfriend when she would style the hair of dead bodies in prep for funerals (which is totally a thing). There's just something about death and the macabre that interests the hell out of me. For the longest time I wanted a hearse of my own (much like Claire's from Six Feet Under...which I still love and watch). But to keep this on topic, I'm betting James is not gonna fit in a typical hearse. Hell, I don't even know if they make caskets in his size.

I dunno what else there is to say that someone else hasn't already touched on...but damn. He is completely insufferable and delusional. Throw another pair of drawers in that bathtub for me! Also, watching him wipe his mouth on a blanket while shoveling in cheesecake is really grossing me out. No napkins in their house?

I posted this in the Tanisha topic, but it probably works better in here, since it;s nonspecific. I'm always surprised at how little Dr. Now actually makes these people do before giving them surgery. My good friend had a gastric sleeve done about 2yrs ago now, and she told me she was required to see a therapist regularly, a nutritionist for actual nutrition counseling (multiple sessions), and follow a strict diet (including a liquids only diet right before) for months before going in for her surgery. These people on the show are getting off easy. It blows my mind how little the participants are willing to do to save their own asses. Literally.

I'm always surprised at how little Dr. Now actually makes these people do before giving them surgery. My good friend had a gastric sleeve done about 2yrs ago now, and she told me she was required to see a therapist regularly, a nutritionist for actual nutrition counseling (multiple sessions), and follow a strict diet (including a liquids only diet right before) before going in for her surgery. These people on the show are getting off easy. It blows my mind how little the participants on the show are willing to do to save their own asses.

The fake service dog thing rubs me the wrong way too. I had a friend (who died almost 2yrs ago) who used to bring her dog everywhere and claim it was a service animal. That wasn't the case because all my friend did was order a special vest online for like $20. The dog didn't actually *do* anything for her physically, like service animals do. It was more like a prop...like "I'm so ill I need a service dog, look at me!!!". I always hated going anywhere with her and the dog cos it'd bark at everything and pull the leash, and in general was more of a nuisance to whatever we were trying to do. And the thing is she actually could have used a *real* service dog because of her diabetes and other stuff but she couldn't get one because her family didn't have the resources to care for it properly, like taking it to the vet regularly for shots and whatnot. I'm not even sure her fake service dog was up to date on vaccines. Anyway.. sorry for the tangent. It just bugs me when people abuse the system like that.

I hate admitting this because I hate James' smug jerky face but his music isn't bad. I wouldn't pay for it, but I'd (illegally) download it if I could find it.

I just watched that episode today. I don't remember the hoarder's name (Terry maybe?) but she had like 50 cats where all but 18 had to be euthanized and another 50-100 dead animals in her fridge and freezer. I don't think she even kept any real (human) food in the house, it was just one giant litterbox for all those poor cats. It was pretty disturbing. Another scary one was Shitty Shana, she kept dumping her piss/shit bucket in her front yard and had seemingly no idea how disgusting that was. She even said something about eating the last of her shit covered food as her "last hurrah" because all addicts get their last fix.. It was bizarre as hell. They finally said she was unfit to live alone...makes me wonder what happened to her. Lonnie's collection was awesome. I wish I lived closer to Vegas cos I'd definitely be trying to take a peek in person.

But of course meddle-y Cristina has to stick her nose where it doesn't belong. Seems to be the running theme now.