I agree. She was more candid than I expected she would be. She confirmed some things and has me rethinking other things. Random thoughts as I was listening:
It's pronounced "Brainy." I had no idea. I always thought her last name rhymed with Johnny.
In light of the scene where they called out Milan's gpa, while behind the scenes giving her crap for prioritizing school, it makes me wonder if the same thing happened with Daphne's "graduation." I'm sure Daphne felt like she had no choice but to skip her graduation in L.A. but then to have a fake one and be praised for it on-camera...all of that must've felt like such a farce.
I always assumed being a DCC was easier for college girls because of the flexibility in their schedules and relative lack of other commitments. I realize now it's just as hard for them. Or at least the ones who are actually trying to get a quality education. However, I wonder even more how the ones with day jobs are able to do everything that is required during training camp. And I also wonder how or why anyone would want to be a DCC for more than a couple of years. I mean, I guess if you don't have to worry about supporting yourself financially, and/or you are pursuing a career in dance/cheer, the sacrifices seem worth it. But otherwise, I don't get it.
This has me thinking about my past critiques of the women going through the DCC program and how the experience must make them feel. Constantly stressed, exhausted, envious of the girls who get the perks, questioning their own value to the team. People here frequently say "no worse is said in this forum than is said by Kelli/Judy." They also say "the DCC signed up for this, they should expect to be criticized by the public." Be that as it may, and even though opinions here don't have the weight that Kelli/Judy's comments do, I'll be thinking about that before every post. These women take a lot from K/J as it is. If the only feedback they get from their employers is negative, do I need to add to it? Particularly given how uninformed my opinion is. I feel sillier than ever now, making criticisms based on a tv show that I know isn't reality. The DCC are an iceberg and I'm only seeing the sliver of it that's visible above the waves. Below the water it's dark, and there are sharks and sharp edges, and all kinds of hazards I couldn't even imagine.
I felt bad for Milan. Her story is so relatable - working hard to reach a huge goal, getting there, and then finding it's not all it's cracked up to be. It's difficult when people are telling you how lucky you are and how proud you must be and inside you're sort of disappointed with the whole thing. Makes me think about Alexandria bailing out so early. Makes me wonder if Milan and Kalyssa had any heart-to-hearts about it. I know a lot of people here criticize the path Kalyssa has chosen post-DCC, but I have seen zero sign that she regrets bailing out early, and now I can see why. I wonder if Alexandria's and Kalyssa's experiences with other pro teams were completely different in terms of how they were treated/valued and if the DCC experience hit them like a face full of ice water by comparison.
Milan confirmed something that I suspected: Kelli and Judy are extremely removed and distant. It doesn't seem that they interact with the girls much at all, which has to be odd, given how much time they all spend together. Not that I expect Kelli to know everyone's birthday and their boyfriend's name and their career/school goals and all that. But it's like they don't know these women at all. Or care to. Kelli is busy running the DCC "business," and seems to have lost touch with its employees, the women themselves. Judy is busy being the artistic director and not a hands-on choreographer who makes and teaches the dances. I wonder if all of this is a function of how long they have been in the job. I can imagine Kelli being genuinely surprised to hear how everything was impacting Milan. I think Kelli cares about the women in an abstract sense, as a group, but she don't seem all that engaged with the team in general, or with the women as individual human beings with their own personalities, and goals, and struggles.
I'm racking my brain thinking of all the speculation that swirled around Milan's departure. IIRC, the prevailing belief was that it was tied up with the whole study abroad thing. Turns out she'd just had enough. I will say, I wasn't inside her head, so I have no idea what she felt during that time, but I have to question whether it was SO bad that she couldn't make it through the last game, to minimize impact on her teammates.
I had no idea she was the youngest on the team.
The story about changing her hair and changing it back. I really would like to have seen just how dark they went.