TurtlePower

Hey you guys! After years of struggle and feeling useless/hopeless and rejected by the agency I’d worked at for over a decade, I finally got a good job. And not just a job, but one in my field (museums). It’s a non-profit museum with a small staff and big goals. A weight has been lifted off my shoulders and my mood has improved so much that I didn’t realise how bad it actually was. I essentially shut myself in (except running/hiking), avoided people and was embarrassed to be asked, “So what are you doing?” I’d have to say “Nothing, I keep getting rejected.” So I avoided the risk of even being asked that question. I’m still in grad school — and now with a way to pay for it (I’d been putting tuition on my credit card along with medical bills) I feel so much less stress and worry. I used to hate just existing. But now I have a purpose and an income (which is an internal thing with me, I always needed a purpose).

What got me: Kody: “Blame yourself if I don’t love you.” This arrogant, odious turd needs to be ignored and forgotten. Let this be the final season with everyone else moving on without him. He’s caused so much grief and pain already and he won’t admit to any wrongdoing. I feel especially bad for Meri, who I’ve previously been critical of. She made mistakes but she doesn’t deserve more of that crap from Kody.

I got in trouble years ago in here and I was actually defending Whitney because someone said something really mean (like over the line mean and that’s what I got in trouble for because I used the phrase “over the line”) They scolded me so badly I wanted to shrivel up and die. They didn’t need to be so mean about it and they gave me one of those warning points like I was some horrible person. It still bothers me actually.

I’ve upped my workouts and weight training and feel surprisingly good on just fish and vegetables (with the occasional treat or carb). I’m hoping the extra weight training will make a difference. I’m fighting this, not giving in.

More bleh news, because I won the genetic lottery (please note sarcasm)! I now may have Cushing syndrome. I noticed a bump between my shoulders that wasn’t structural and my face had been puffy. I’ve been working out hard, but my body has been slow to change. I realise age has a bit to do with it, but I run 5 miles and then I do resistance training — every day. Just 7 years ago, this would have been enough to buff me up. Has anyone else dealt with this? it’s frustrating, especially for someone who’s had anorexia and now has to limit even more calories. I’m basically fish and vegetables and water now — but I’ll do what I gotta do to stay moderately fit. Hope to find out more from the endocrinologist in October (yep it’s that far out). I’ve been getting spinal steroid shots for years and that may have something to do with it. I don’t have a tumor on my pituitary, either, which is good. It's just…….frustrating.

I think the worst punishment for Kody isn’t to be made fun of (as Christine is), it’s to be forgotten and ignored. Everyone moves on, like he doesn’t exist (except during visits with kids, etc). Let him wallow in Flagstaff while everyone else happily lives their lives without him and his “head-of-the-family-leader” BS.

So happy for Janelle. Tony and Mykelti are reportedly moving to NC as well. Feel bad for Christine though.

Recently saw how blonde Mykelti is and her hair looks amazing. She looks decades younger than what black box dye made her look (also appears much thinner). She looks like a different person.

Yikes! We had an earthquake here on Long Island several months ago. The house shook like bison were running on the roof. We had them in CA (a given), we had them in Yellowstone (often), occasionally in Vegas, in AZ, NM and now NY? Can’t seem to get away from earthquakes. Long Island of all places.

Doing much better. It was some dark times and I didn’t want to interact or bother everyone with my issues — it got worse, and then even worse. When I thought “it can’t get much worse, can it?” — it did. It got so bad I nearly gave up on life in general. I just…….”went away” until I was mentally ready to interact again. I lost a lot of fitness due to the cardiac issues and then the surgery. The fitness comeback is always hard, but I ran 5 miles this morning. It was slow — but it feels good to even be able to do it at all. Just 2 months ago I was only running 200 meters at a time, it was all I could manage.

Went there all the time when we lived in Vegas. All. The. Time.

Hello people, I’ve been gone for quite a long time but found my way back. So many things have happened. I had major spinal surgery (a reconstruction done in Manhattan at hospital for special surgery) — the aftermath was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. It’s healing up now 6 months after but won’t be fully healed for a year. I also managed to get Lyme disease and Babesiosis from a tick bite and got myocarditis from one of the newer Covid vaccines — I was hospitalised so many times for cardiac issues. It’s been a rough year for me and I am SO over it. So, I had to disconnect from everything because nothing mattered to me, the pain from that surgery lasted for months and I had the cardiac issues for months, during which I’d pass out if I tried to work out. But I’m back running again and things are looking up. Glad to see many of you are still here!

Same, exactly same.

This. Robyn wanted the other wives to stay and remain below her while she sat on top, using their resources. This was Robyn’s intent from the very beginning.

I understand why Meri tried to do that but I was so mad at Meri in that moment — Meri gets to tell the whole family she might be “gone” (catfish era) and Christine doesn’t get to feel like she’s done? It was so hypocritical of Meri.