Anela

I forgot about areas with no service. That’s why they all lost WiFi. of course Sadie is pregnant. If grace’s husband instilled so much confidence in their daughter, why didn’t she call him? It seems like she didn’t want to disappoint him, and wanted her mother to handle it. I like their friendships.

I can’t imagine a full-time content creator, with a manager, and a lot of sponsorships, depending on WiFi as she travels across the country for work. I would have thought she’d have unlimited data.

I’m supposed to be sleeping, but I still haven’t made my cheesecake, and I was still thinking about this. I didn’t want to get up when I woke up. Just distinctly aware of who isn’t here anymore, and I didn’t hear my dad downstairs. It was early, and it took me a long time to get myself moving. I’m very, very lucky to have my dad. I have been trying to shake things off, for that reason. anyway, we went out for a while, and when we got home, I briefly sat at my computer, to check something. I clicked on YouTube, too, and the first thing recommended to me was “the bump” by the Bay City Rollers. My mother LOVED them. They had the UK number one single when I was born (Bye Bye Baby), and one of my earliest memories is dancing with my mum, in our living room, to their album. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gz5nVuP5jF0 I haven’t listened to them in a long time. I think I’ve only remembered them a few times in the past decade.

Someone warned me that it’s depressing, and that she plays a more cheerful show in the background as she plays. I’m already depressed, so I might pass for now. this weekend is busy, I’ve only watched the two episodes, and I’m really in a mood to binge.

I was just going to say, it's like Justified, in a different universe. We're just missing Timothy Olyphant. I didn't know what to think about the ghoul not killing the dog, because he left the chicken alone, too. I don't think he wanted to kill the dog.

I also wonder when my internal screaming will become external. up in the area where we go to the beach, there’s a place where you can go to break things. I’ve never been, because I felt guilty, the one time I threw a mug on purpose, but I might try it. I laughed when we first passed it, because it’s right next to a yoga studio, and I think the other side was a vaping store. We’re almost out of cheese, but when we get some, I’ll make a grilled cheese. :) thank you.

Same. All of it. I could go into a long vent about this, but it would be too long. So I’ll add another small peeve: national sibling day. I have no relationship with mine. I loathe the fact that romantic relationships and marriage have been pushed so much that they were considered to be the most important relationships. they weren’t for me.

I’m going to start playing new Vegas, if my computer can handle it. I liked this. I love Walton goggins, and that the ghoul left the chicken alone. I’ve been waiting for a show to grab me like this. I haven’t watched shogun yet, because I wanted to see the whole thing, not wait.

There was a woman on the news, who sounded like she was in love with him, talking about “what he went through in California.” What he went through? I don’t understand it. I remember the evening he took off in the bronco. We couldn’t watch the whole trial, because I think it was on cable, and we only had the basic channels. We didn’t have the internet, either, so we caught the highlights they shared.

The author of the book is 60 years old. Not a millennial.

I’ve started this, but I really need sleep. I got past the wedding, and something that happens afterwards.

I love watching people cook. It gets me up to make my own food.

I haven’t really paid attention to calories and fat, because my stomach condition had me getting sick all the time, I wasn’t keeping much down. Even water, for a while there. I’m doing better with that now, so maybe I should be paying attention. I don’t think I eat enough, though. I go through phases of feeling hungry all the time, it’s annoying. I’ve been out of it, and haven’t been getting much made, so I’m trying to change that this week. it’s like gastroparesis/cyclic vomiting. I add enzymes to water now - vegetarian ones - which helps, but not all the time. I do better with whole fat dairy, and I don’t like vegan yogurt. I recently tried the honey one, because I bought the big tub, and I like it! I didn’t think it would.

https://odettewilliams.com/blogs/blog/chocolate-cake-detox

I’m going to make dad a chocolate cake for his birthday. I might try one I have saved in my email. I’ll find it. I’m making a small cheesecake for my own, and tonight, I made this - I keep forgetting I can’t just paste links here, on my ipad. I need to use the thing above. https://pinchofyum.com/healing-chicken-and-rice-soup I add tamari to my congee, but with this, I preferred it without. I’m going to add the lime juice individually instead of into the whole thing. my dad tried to make bread today, because we’re broke, and needed some. It was slightly clunky, and cakey, but not bad. I think his round loaf looked better, and I’ll try it with my soup.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fsu5ZZwzFyk

opening this week.

Last weekend, when dad stopped at Starbucks to get me an iced chai, they’d just closed, when dad tried the door - and this lovely girl who serves him there, said “we open the door for Nick.” Neither of us expected them to do that, we were just going to leave.

I watched it from my garden. I hadn’t slept in at least two days, but caffeine helped a bit. I didn’t take pictures, either, and I didn’t know that I could look directly at it, when it was at totality. So, I looked at a livestream in Cleveland (NASA), and then wondered why people were being told to put their glasses back on now, as it ended. I did hold my phone and take video of my garden, as I wore my glasses.

I don’t think so. I’m surprised the conversation was allowed. I thought that was a no-no here. I was iffy on responding, because I wanted to vent, but I didn’t want to shit on anyone.

I was posting about my own experiences, where I’m stuck. I’m allowed to vent, too. the guy who almost took my life when I was a kid, was the brother of a famous football player. he was just an angry guy, who wanted to marry my mother, but didn’t want kids. I was afraid to look for my missing cat, a year ago, because people have been so wound up, I didn’t know if I’d be met with a gun, or even get hurt just walking past someone’s garden, calling for him. When things were happening close by, in other towns, like robberies, there were people who decided that teenagers should just be “dealt with” that their lives weren’t worth anything. They actually said that. “dealt with” didn’t mean “arrested”. That’s *my* vent. I purposely didn’t vent about things that have had me so down, because I didn’t want anyone making light of any of it, and I’m not in a good enough place to hear that. Like someone on Facebook, five years ago, who told me that it could always be worse, when I’m aware, and that’s part of what I’m worried about.

I thought this was called "I Want You Back".

I thought the video game was the recruitment tool, for those they asked to help them.