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read my post again. i never said i didn't understand his side of the story. it's extremely obvious that God is real which is why sam simply shrugged at the evidence, but that's not so with dean. that means a lot for his character. he truly believes that there's nothing but evil in this world which shows just how broken and hurt he really is. and from that brokenness, from that pain, is what makes dean stubborn and blind, even in the face of truth. yes in SPN demons are twisted human souls, but i'm sure that with their lifetime knowledge of so much religion sam and dean could come across that. besides for all we know sam and dean could have just went with the Bible on the origin of angels until ruby told them the truth. again that's what makes dean stubborn. as soft as sam is, he's more on the logical side than dean. sam has never seen angels either but it's just logical to assume that if there are demons, there are angels. the second comment was directed at what dean is struggling with. if God is real, why is there so much evil? if God is real, why did He let his family die (and yes i am including sam)? well no-one knows that. no-one is asking dean to understand God, to even care about God. just admit He exists because of the clear evidence and move on with your life. he doesn't have to love God like Christians, anymore than if he believed in The Devil, he'd have to spend some cuddle time with him as well. i just...never understood that constant plotline. before Faith, i assumed they both believed in angels and God because they believed in everything else they had come across. now i know about dean's "I believe what I see" but look at him now. he saw an angel that proved he was with undenial proof and still found a way out. he still found a way to say that none of it was real. so this is more on dean and himself and his feelings than trying to shock the audience that angels and God exists. if they just focused on dean instead of the obvious then i wouldn't have such a problem with this reoccurring plot.

if there are demons there have to be angels, therefore meaning there has to be a God and a devil. it's not that hard. as i said before they have used holy chants and holy water for demons, why is it such a shocker for dean to see that God exists? no-one is asking dean to love God anymore than he has to love The Devil, just admit it and move on.

"Sammy, wherever you are, Mom was a babe. I'm going to Hell." LMAO golden line for sure. ---- as for me i am so happy they didn't let go of the yellow eyed demon plot and how their mother knew him because i was just scratching my head on it last night. me and sister gasped and froze in shock and terror when john died. talk about PLOT TWIST. i would have never guessed she did a deal with the yellow demon. so is this season half focused on what exactly he had planned? i am FOR IT. it's KILLING ME that it was never revealed. jensen barely holding it when mary wanted a simple life was just beautiful, and the slight stutter of saying mary's name when he finally talked was a nice touch. also his grandfather was possessed during the time, but if dean explained what was going on, would he believe him if he wasn't? all dean would need to do is say "Just look at me" lol. he obviously got his blonde hair from his mother and his handsome looks from his father.

it was okay but felt a bit filler to me. also dean refusing to believe in God was just stupid from the get go, i hate that reoccurring part in the plot. besides the fact that demons are literally fallen angels, they use latin chants that use Jesus and the name of God and use HOLY WATER for pete's sake. if there is evil in this world it has to be good. it's just logic. but then again, like the Bible, like the pharoah in the old testament, he saw many signs of God and refused to believe. i believe dean is a representation of how hardened the human heart can be even when hardcore evidence is literally in front of their eyes. like sam said, it's less about faith this time, now it's about facts.

tsk. jensen ackles, jensen ackles. how can you get even MORE handsome and still retain the same look from 3 years prior? i'll have to slap you one day. eh i'm 50/50 on this. i didn't like how the reunion of sam and dean was just a hug, and then they almost immediately separate. sam was shxtting his pants when dean FAKE died in the parking lot and told him not to go out, but he just leaves him like a half hour he sees him? reunion aside i felt it was rushed, but it got to the point. castiel seems interesting enough. as 50/50 as i feel about this episode i'll still give it a 10/10 for that short but darn near ethereal dean's shirt flash was. i forgive all the episode. good lord he needs at least one more scene to show those beautifully toned stomach muscles, and SOON.

woah really? there's a difference of scripts and transcripts? yes, i guess with that perspective dean was just being protective. i mean i don't hate him for it, it just confused me.

ah okay, thanks

it's easy, just search up the transcripts on the wikia. someone gave them to me last month. also there was no line, it was an action by dean. if you can grab a streaming site at hand and check out the time you'll see. it's small and he surely acted unconsciously but i love it all the same. true, almost all of S2 was sam being afraid he would turn bad. but i found how sam was afraid and how dean was afraid was different. dean was afraid like it was some demonic evil sam was born with and told him to repress it, sam was just afraid it would turn him bad one day. oh, here are the links btw: http://www.supernaturalwiki.com/index.php?title=Category:Transcripts episode script: http://www.supernaturalwiki.com/index.php?title=1.14_Nightmare_(transcript)http://www.supernaturalwiki.com/index.php?title=1.14_Nightmare_(transcript) with the find in page option search up "I'm telling you there was nothing in there. No signs either, just like the Miller's house" and that's the scene. there was nothing written in that part of him protecting sam.

sorry, what is LJ??

"Stop looking at me like that!" "I'm not looking at you like anything! Thought I gotta say you look like crap." "Nice. Thanks." omg this sibling moment is the BEST. it's not the big, "gotta save 'im" moments that matter, it's the small ones that count. the way jensen delivered that line is just mwah. he sounded like SUCH a sibling. it was also a slight comedic moment from ther serious situation of sam being mad at himself that he couldn't save the man, but the reason why it's so good is because siblings can do crap like that. something so serious comes up and then you just have to have a sibling fight. seriously did writers just wing their relationship or get an expert on these two? i never understood dean's fear of sam's psychic powers. i thought he would have found it cool, how his personality goes. it's unfair of dean to keep opressing the power sam was born with. this is also the he first episode sam uses his iconic and reoccurring puppy eyes, when he tries to talk to max in the living room and from killing dean and the mother. of course sam and dean (but especially dean) ironically looking like sin in those holy father outfits. when they leave the miller's house for the second time, i could loop that scene forever. sam looking like a teenager and cute af in that short hairstyle. 18:36 - 18:40. that wasn't in the script (i checked) so they must have added it at that moment. i'm not complaining at all, protective dean is protective. and i will never stop liking that ;) of course who doesn't love sam unknowingly throwing the bookcase away! i don't think it will ever be revealed how he did that and i'm on S4. it's still awesome nonetheless. fun fact: when dean says he'll always be there for sam and whatever and when sam does the same, they are enacting something called Sibling Warmth, which is a type of action that only siblings can give to each other. to spread out on what i mean it's like if you made i dunno, a piece of music and you showed it to your parents, and they said "That's great son/daughter!" but if you showed it to your sibling/(s) and they said the same, it would be different for you. it's the same with me and my brother. i'm constantly clumsy and therefore fall a lot, and my parents ask me if i am okay and i brush it off with an "I'm fine". but if i fall and my brother says "Well are you okay?" i get all up in my feelings for some reason :P so that's why sam is wrapped around dean's finger and vice versa. that's why they will do anything for each other. literally no-one but them can give or receive any type of affection like they can for each other. the sibling bond really is so powerful :) um let's see, it was probably the shapeshifter episode.

yes, agreed. the winchesters throughout the seasons (at least in what i'm seeing from all the way up to S3) have always been seen as The Winchesters, like they were legendary in their hunting skills. that being said john was almost certainly top class in his hunting and so are his sons. i feel like sam doesn't get enough credit for his ability to hunt as well as dean because he's constantly getting into trouble, but he really is a freaking awesome (and even badass at times) hunter. the thing is that because dean spent more time with his father - not just when sam left but as children because sam was younger and needed to be protected more than trained to hunt - so he got much more of the action and understanding of the hunting game his father taught him. so for all the jokes on his intelligence and all, he really can think. he really can make split second decisions and know how to be on his toes. i guess what i am trying to say is that sam is an extremely capable hunter, but dean is OG? i never understood the hate that john had gotten. yes he hurt his sons but he didn't mean to. yes he made some bad choices but again he didn't mean to. none of the things that hurt him and the others around him were in malice or harmful intent so i don't get it. he abandoned his sons because he loved them. he always, always wanted a better and normal life for them. now if and when sam and dean both have their own battles and problems with their dad that's up to them; we don't know them like they do. that's their problem and their business, so they can feel whatever they want. but in the end they still love him. and that's how it is for me. he made a lot of mistakes but i'm not going to hang him for it. the things i would do to get a chance to work that number again to hear Dean Winchester talk into my ear... ------ i feel like the dean in boxers and bedhair scene is very overlooked. it was sexy seeing him in that split second scene with him looking fit as hell in those black boxers, but it suddenly turned adorable with him arguing with his brother about how brave he was in his pillow tossed hair. it's like a one and a half, around 2 minute scene but it's one of the best in the whole series. speaking of adorable, he looked that way when he was hesitant on voicing his aviophobia. it's only the 4th episode and we soon see a crack in the tough guy look dean puts out, it made me laugh out loud but i had to keep it quiet because i was looking at this at like 2 in the morning.

well i checked ao3 and it's in its beta. how long has that been? lol i guess i can understand the simplicity of the websites but i mean nothing is stopping or harming them from at least updating the buttons a bit lmao. i checked FF and pressed TV and SPN is right at the top, lol. wasn't expecting that. it has over 120k hits but ao3 has 170k. comparing ao3 obviously has more content but FF doesn't seem too bad either.

no, i wasn't referring to how active the sites were because of the content and how old it was, i was talking about thes sites theirselves. it looks so...dated lol. i guess i will try FF since ao3 demands an invitation and that really throws me off. thank you.

are they really that popularly used? the sites look like they never updated past 2002 so i never bothered.

i just typed up my fanfic. i don't know where to upload it since i don't know a lot of the fanfic world so i'll just link to public document here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_PH6-y0vsVs32TkB-MoUqHv5zWhHYKAU0gC7WmIjsGM/edit?usp=drivesdk also please forgive me for not titling it, i'm horrible at titles :x please feel free to give any critiques of any kind!

lol what is it with ruby and her "it's too late" when sam asked for her help with his powers? woman (or demon, whatever) you told him he could defeat lilith like what 10hrs ago? also when dean said why didn't she say that in the first place and she said "Hello I'm a demon I manipulate" THE FCK???? DIDN'T YOU WANT TO GET RID OF LILITH AS SOON AS POSSIBLE???? but you didn't tell sam because you wanted to "manipulate"???? so stupid. interesting how dean didn't kill her though, as much as he hated her possibly above all demons. hm. dean's reaction when he could see True Ruby was hilarious. and his one liner: "Nothing. You're just really...really ugly. Wow." needless to be said, sam and dean's final song together was beautiful. when sam eventually joined in and he looked at his big brother, it wasn't of pity, fear or sadness or anything like it. he was just looking at him with such admirance and love. he knows dean is scared but he still chooses to not do it to the end. in that one song, everything was thrown away. they at least are going to get one good moment out of this. heck the song lyrics was a reminder of their situation and yet they are singing about it having fun. my mother and father knew the song so they sang along as well, it was just so great hearing four voices singing together. one of the best TV moments (and moments with my family) for me. lilth was obviously a nod to the classic twilight zone episode which i thought was perfect. the gender was just changed and made even more creepy and violent. and the suspense when sam crept up behind her in her sleep....i wanted to scream. perfect directing as well. "omg your lips are so soft" omg why is it almost always sam who is getting sexually harassed?!?! poor boy, this is his what, fifth time? but i think what the writers really made her more disgusting is that lilith is basically a demonic little girl and here she is talking about sam's lips and kissing him. even if that wasn't the point, that's how i saw it. as for dean getting mutilated...my sister and i were staring at the TV in shock, both our mouths open. i didn't realise i was shaking until i held my hands to my mouth in horror and saw how badly they were trembling. sam's high pitched screams for lilith to stop just made it all the worse (thanks a lot jared!). but even so, like sam, me and my sister still held onto the flase hope that dean had somehow survived and attack against demonic dogs. yeah. i know. it didn't set in until we saw sam weeping over dean, something that i honestly thought jared could not accomplish, because his acting in the mystery spot episode of dean's death wasn't that good to me. i don't know what happened or what deals he made with his own demons but he really brought it home and more with this. speaking of the mystery spot episode, someone commented on that episode thread that jensen's ability to look dead should be illegal because of how real he looked, and this episode i had to agree. jensen looked so horrible, so dead that my heart froze and i looked away as the camera closed in. why exactly did they make the Hell scene? i don't know. why did they make us look at dean screaming for help and crying for his brother? i don't know that either. but i would really love to know the reasoning behind the developers' decision to leave us with dean's helpless screams and pleas at the credits. i REALLY would, because honestly that was the end. no matter how many times me and my sister reminded each other that there are 13 seasons and obviously dean is very much alive, we still were broken. it was too horrible, it was too real. and most of all dean didn't deserve it. i guess i could say that i was in denial that this would happen, that i clung to sam's contant promising of his pledge to save dean, but that wouldn't be fair. from the season's beating the viewers that dean was doomed no matter what, and for that sick twist that sam could have saved dean but it was too late to come up, i can't lie. i admitted it deep down and i know sam did too, i would say around the time after the mystery spot episode. even for all what my heart went through this episode, i have to say i'm glad that sam wasn't written to automatically awaken his powers even for seeing his worst fear come true (power of love trope and all that). they were dormant and remained dormant because he didn't work at them and that's that. i still believe dean made a mistake with ruby. i believe ruby would have helped sam if he let her and he could have lived. it was just too late. but i assume that's up for debate for the fanbase. EDIT: when the credits started my father looked at me and said "Well what happens now?!?" and i was confused because he barely watches the show so i asked what, and he said "Well who's going to watch the car now?!? They're not going to let that go to waste are they?!?" then i remembered when i was watching S1 he watched some of it and fell in love with the car. he has loved it ever since. now whenever he sees the show he always asks about the impala.

i halfway thought sam was crazy when he was talking about using that old murderer's "solution" to being immortal, when they both knew the price to keep living. but just like dean he is reckless and desprate. (i mean even if they went through with it they could just use people who wanted to die/suicidal people so they wouldn't exactly murder people who didn't want to be killed, but they are too good of two souls to even do that.) SO glad that bitxh is dead, bye bella. like dean said, she could have just came to them for help but she chose not to. and her weak excuse of "Yeah and end up saving yourself too" bitxh what? does that change you could have asked for help? even if they couldn't they would try and you know it, they saved your life before. sam and dean are beautiful human beings and even though dean is the "killer", both of them would love it if that option was the last one. they want to save everyone, people they don't even know, like YOU. who cares if she was a molested/rape victim, like hendrickson said, we all have wrecked up lives and we all don't become killers. even for bella killing her parents okay but why does she have to be such a BITXH to everyone and everything though??? those are not excuses, give me a break. goodbye and good riddance. i mean if the writers tried making us feel bad for her they shouldn't have done it right after SHE TRIED TO SHOOT THEM IN THEIR SLEEP. although there is one thing i liked how they wrote her, is that only we (the audience) knew of what happened to bella and she never explained to dean and sam. in this sense she is a misunderstood character and dean and sam aren't going to know everything about everyone they come across, so there's that. although if she confided in them they would have a heat for her fo sure, but they don't know her and she doesn't know them, so in that perspective there was no need for her to say a word to them about it. and shame and guilt and all that but you know what i mean.

ugh why did you have to put thay gif there?!? my heart ;_; ------- okay so my mother was watching it with me and when sam begged dean to stay in the motel she wanted him to stay too. but i told her that how could she say that? we saw just a few episodes ago how dean really is terrified of going to hell. he's scared out of his mind. and what do people do when they aren't in their right mind? they are reckless. i could completely understand why dean left, but i was also i dunno, proud(?) a little bit that he at least tried to stay, when sam left and he grumpily sat in the corner chair. this episode was just too much for my heart, like really. i was feeling heavy the whole time. the ghostfacers episode was such a saving grace because of the grueling and looming shadow of dean's dying, but right afterwards we get this episode. now it has jumped from 2 months to 3 weeks. so again, it makes total sense why dean would be getting more and more desprate and reckless. thus why when he was clearly hurt by sam's lackluster attempts at listening to their dad i felt so bad for him. it's doubly as easy to feel so badly for him because i can switch sam with myself and see dean as my own brother. this episode was so heavy for me i sort of dragged my feet on looking at the next episode.

i never thought i'd say this but i'm so happy to hear dean and sam (but especially dean) curse. dean (externally anyway) is the classic american guy. playboy, happy-go-lucky, extroverted, he even looks a porn. but he doesn't swear or uses baby swear words? i know that their characters are forced to do this because of TV censorship and for that reason i especially loved that the writers let loose on dean and sam because they are real people. on reality TV where they are "uncensored". my favourite is when dean shouted "EVERYONE SHUT THE FXXK UP" haha. looking at dean swear and so constantly was looking at another side of him and i LOOOVED IT. sam swearing was just way too cute though, lol, "HOLY SHXT!" oh and when the dude's sister wandered off and turned around and saw dean when he tapped her, that scared me too! i had to actually calm down after that lol. overall i liked this episode.

omg YES, i thought the same thing! sam used the Power of the Puppy Eyes to its limit, more than ever! dean even pitched in with his innocent grin as well, i saw that ;) as for the "shooting the deputy" part none of us understood but my mother, who had the idea to say it before dean even said it. needless to be said she was on the bed laughing when dean said what she had just a few seconds before. haha, that seems more appropriate ;) ----------------- i know many people love this episode reading this thread, but dear Lord me and my sister hated it. it's not because of the episode itself or the writing, but because of goddang bella. the whole time we were hating and damning her soul. none of this would have happened if she never was so freaking selfish and stupid. so many innocent people died because of her. because of her, more than 30 people died. those people are on her hands now. which is why we were angry at ruby for ranting at dean and sam for doing the right thing. it's not their fault at all, they tried to do their best with what they were forced upon. if i could go back in time and do magic i would have written that the episode didn't end with dean and sam mellowing in their guilt, but instead yelling at ruby it would have never happened if bella the bitxh never told on them. honestly, why don't they tell ruby about her so she can hunt her down and KILL her? some epic parts of the episode: -hendrickson finally coming to his senses and dean even becoming friendly with him. i liked that because it showed how quick dean is to forgive if he sees the dignity in a human being. me on the other hand was still thinking of one liners of teasing him having his head in toilet water. -sam quiet the entire scene when hendrick went in on them. he barely showed any reaction as well. very powerful scene for sam. -sam immediately setting into action when dean got shot, how quickly he leaped up and pushed the gun up! and when he saw it was a demon, he instantly spat out the latin chants from memory alone. i'm surprised no-one has mentioned that yet! that was so awesome. saving his bro requires no books^^ -strange of me to say but the scene that followed afterwards, when sam and dean were trying to calm people down and insisting they didn't shoot anyone. - dean being obsessed with the virgin. "Nobody’s a virgin" i mean come on dean, he actually meant that as well. so does that mean that with all the people they interview and deal with daily he just assumes in the back of his head "They've had sex"????? not everyone values sex as you do, dean. tisk tisk tisk. more lines from this moment: "What? It’s a choice, okay?" "So, y-you’ve never… Not even once? I mean not even – Wow." "Stop! Stop! Nobody kill any virgins!" the way that was said was hilarious because jensen's accent slipped and made it sound like "VOURGINS" lol. "I’m not gonna let that demon kill some nice, sweet, innocent girl, who hasn’t even been laid!" -his reaction when nancy's picture showed up on the screen. honestly i felt so bad for him that i wished for her to be alive somehow and meet up with the boys in another episode in that moment. dean is so dead serious about this sex thing, what's his problem lol? my mother was watching it with me and said dean should have took nancy's first after the whole fight and said "Okay, now it's taken care of." for shame mother! side note and random: where is elle???? with bella making me hate any female i see on the show, i was reminded of her being the only saving grace. i want her back :(

well this episode really saddened me lol. this show always hits me personally because i have an older brother, and he's not only my big brother. he's a combination of many. he's my only older brother but he's he's the oldest of us all (there's 6 of us), so he's not only my bigger brother he's my BIGGEST brother, and the only sibling older than me. so seeing sam so cold at the end, and not caring to slaughter an innocent life for his brother is completely understandable. in this way, sam is like me. dean isn't just his only brother, he's his only sibling and only big sibling. whether it's a sister or brother you just rely on your elders a lot and worship them from afar no matter what; the olders will never know just how exactly you adore them. and since dean is the same gender as him he feels even for his older brother. so when he just stood there and begged softly at the trickster, for dean to come back, my heart broke. because i would be doing the same. i was near tears when the trickster went back to wednesday and sam woke up and saw his big bro. also i don't know if anyone noticed, but when sam said in the final scene "It's Wednesday" it was much different from his other time. the last time he said "IT'S WEDNESDAY" because he was so happy to get out of tuesday. but this time he said it softer ("It's Wednesday...."), like he had come out of a dream and could hardly believe himself say it. this, of course, is because of the subtle but powerful acting of jared, so well done there i must say. i also liked the hug scene. first i thought it wasn't going to happen and i was going to pout major time but when he did i was satisfied. the part i like the most isn't sam but dean and his reaction, which is actually important in this short moment. i actually thought dean would either (a push sam away quickly like "Hey, what's going on?" because he was vulnerable and scared why sam was hugging him so tightly for or (b let sam hug him for a while then push away and ask the same thing. now let me be clear, this is what i THOUGHT would happen with this scene (because of western masculinity), but that doesn't mean i would think it to correctly align with his character. neither of these scenarios happened and i am happy for that. but i lead off what i was talking about in the first place. what i mean to say is that dean's allowing of sam's hug shows us two, maybe even three things. 1, it shows that dean's guard is 1000% down with sam because sam could have done anything to him like that lol. 2. it shows that, once again, NOT to say that dean isn't the tough guy alpha he's born to be but he's definitely a softie for hugs (<3) and 3 he trusts sam for him to march at him in determined manner and fling his arms around him fiercely and not move a muscle. he let sam hug him as long as he desired, in the end he was just confused (as anyone would be). since i am speaking of dean, i would like to point this out as well: What [is it]? You all right? Hey. You with me? You sure you feel okay? What's wrong? i pulled these from the transcripts just to make sure, but i had already noticed form this episode just how attentive dean is for sam. he is constantly asking about sam's well-being, so now i understand when sam gets pissed when dean asks these same familiar words. i also noticed just how much he's willing to throw his own desires out for his little brother. sam doesn't want to go eat breakfast? dean doesn't give a syllable of protest; they're not eating breakfast. sam doesn't want him to go into the parking lot? guess what, dean's staying right where he wants him to. sam doesn't want dean to visit the mystery hole at midnight? okay, they're not doing it. sam is so spoiled, lmao. i guess what really depresses me is the constant looming shadow of "Dean will die, Dean will die and there's nothing you can do about it..." over sam and the audience. i get so frustrated and sad and trapped. what's even worse is the "6 months later" scenario was completely believable because sam really was getting shxt done without dean. it was pretty dang scary. lastly, my only (very small) gripe was the last scene could have been better done. in my opinion, i think it would have been right for the last scene to have dean driving the car at night and sam leaned over sleeping on his shoulder. he just got a brother who was dead for half a year, he would most likely want to be by his side for at least the rest of the day. dean would glance worriedly at sam and mutter something like "What kind of weird ass dream did you have man?" P.S. oh and my sister said that one of dean's deaths should have been done by sam himself, from strangling him for listening to that asia song for the millionth time. that would have been such great comedic relief. something like (In the diner, Dean speaks through a mouthful of food) "So...how many times did I die?" "More times than I can count. Hell last time you died right on your bed." (Sam looks away, chin in his palm, half irritated and thinking of something else) "What happened to me? Heart attack or something?" (Sam looks over) "Huh? Uh no, actually that was me. I strangled you because I couldn't take another decibel of that damn Asia song anymore." (Dean stares) (Sam looks taken aback) "What? After all the ways you died, take this one was actually deserved."

i just gotta say i was so disheartened when i learned there really is no way out for dean. what really made my heart feel heavy was learning that dean will eventually become a demon and sam will have to banish or even kill him one day. that's just so messed up right there. i just felt horrible when ruby said she had to prepare sam for the war, it was like a final nail in the coffin that dean isn't escaping anything. obviously from the continued seasons dean finds some way to scrap to planet earth but that still doesn't stop hurting me. i liked when sam zoomed off with the gun and went in with every intent of slaying, lmao. badass sam is rare, love it.

sam's wet dream is somewhat relatable with me. not that i've had a wet dream (i certainly don't intend to either) but i did have a dream when a boy up the street kissed me on the cheek and in the dream i was so excited and blushing and happy and i woke up like wtf, lol. i had and still have no attraction to him at all. sometimes the brain just chooses for you and you're helpless. the dream was so random and sam liking the woman who shot him is just no so even if i'm 100% wrong i'll just go with my theory anyway :P i think when sam and dean went into his mind we were expecting some pornish looking women and a bar or club to be the setting, but it went dark, and fast. we do see a woman, but it's in a pure, calming view. the soft, fairy like music in the background i cannot express enough how PERFECTLY it makes you think it's in a dream. whoever chose that song, and whoever chose to play it at that exact volume, MAJOR kudos to him/her. then there's the subtle but powerful emotions in jensen's face. dean is pulled in and he can't look away. "I've never had this dream before," he swears to sam. is it a hint that dean isn't even aware of the things in his mind, because he's so focused on his brother? or just a desire he's pushed in the back of his head long, long ago? either way, dean is taken. his eyes are soft and focused. his emotions are stirring until the vision vanishes, then he sternly says to sam, "Don't look at me like that." and that freaking broke my heart. it made me realise sam was right next to him, looking at dean stare at his vision and feeling so bad for him, wanting him to have his dream as much as dean. he saw the longing and empathy in his brother's eyes and couldn't take it. right then and there they knew what each other was seeing and feeling, completely. i know that many people give credit to jensen with his acting at screaming and shooting the head dean but his real acting is when demon dean resurrects and snarles "You can't escape me. You're gonna die. And this? This is what you're gonna become!" i'm always more interested in seeing this how people act "outside" of theirselves, like when sam was possessed. and jensen and jared did a fantastic job doing just that. the two gripes i had with this episode was that same gripe i had in the jinn episode with cameron. the writers obviously do not take cassie as seriously as they wrote her which just plain sucks. she's the only women in his life he shared his heart to and told her voluntarily what he does as his job. he hasn't been like that with any other woman, so why aren't they using that dangit? i'll be bitter to the writers forever for that. but if anyone has any spoilers of her returning for whatever reason, please spoil it for me and tell me. on the other hand, don't! the second gripe i had was the reaction dean had in the car. i don't think it would have been cheesy or cliche for him to have been unconsciously crying, you know in his sleep? maybe even shaking as well. and when he woke up and realised it he just darted his face away from sam and collected himself. the script says that dean was shaken for what just happened, and i don't think that it was shown besides a worried look jensen gave. i mean come on the dean showed the most emotion he has probably his whole life, he was terrified and angry that he had to go to hell. he tried so hard, so damn hard at keeping his family together. followed his father without a word of rebellion. and as much as he was with his father the most and gotten along with him, he needed and wanted sam with him in those two years he broke up the family. as proven by the pilot he could have dropped by in sam's life at anytime, even his father at least visited sam's college, but dean respected sam's wish and didn't bother a hair on his head. even if he wanted to he had no-one to talk to about him missing sam because guess what, his father loved him but didn't get along with him as dean did. so when their father goes missing, he really needs sam this time but can't help himself. he has no one but him and he's already thinking of ways to make sam stay. then when they finally have the family together, the family he raised by himself, john dies and sam seemingly almost directly afterwards. both are dean's fault (in his view). so looking at it that way, yes i don't think any trembling or crying would have been out of line. but besides that i can't argue with much of the episode. i don't even care that bella the bitxh slipped them one once again. on my rewatch list~ P.S. i know that sam's ability played at least somewhat into him defeating jeremy, but i still would have wanted him to force jeremy to take the binds off of him or something like that. i'm done now!

i know another popular (and real) brother duo and the younger one does that to the older one a LOT, and the older one is damned if he doesn't fall for them so many times. he's even posted on his IG once with his brother begging him to get something for him and he asks the camera, "What am I supposed to do when I see that face?". there's even one time when the younger pouted for his older brother and he quickly looked away so he wouldn't fall for it LMAO ----- "Bela, if we make it out of this alive, the first thing I'm gonna do is kill you. You're not serious. Listen to my voice and tell me if I'm serious." TELL HER DEAN!!!!! i HATE bella so much. poor gordon. even he didn't deserve that. i'm not sure the writing was supposed to make it this way but he's a tragic character. not only is he turned into a vampire he's a hundred times worse and more heinous than any vampire. honestly i would take an entire arc of gordon vs winchesters before two minutes of bella, ugh. also when the girl turned into a vampire and dean shot her, it took me a moment to realise how fast and accurate his aim was, woah! that's pretty impressive. and FINALLY got my wish, sam saving dean at last! when dean was showing sam how to fix the car and went "very good", "that's nice" etc, that was really sweet and dang near fatherly of him. i liked it. on my final note: i've never paid much attention to the OST but this season's really good for me. i like it.