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  1. tiftgirl

    Small Talk: Judge's Chambers

    I posted a few weeks ago about my cat's kidney disease. I had to let her go Saturday. Weight was just falling off of her no matter how much she ate and she started trying to get out of the house, and she never even offered to go near the door in 18 years. The Dr said that sometimes they try get away to be by themselves at the end and said it was only days. Then she started having trouble with her balance. It was peaceful, they gave her a sedative first and she just eased head over into my hand and then they gave her the other shot and she was gone. I don't know if I can get through this. I have not been alone in the house in 18 years. Every time I think about cleaning out her little boxes and packing up her food to donate I wind up just looking at it and crying. It's one of God's little jokes that he gives us these sweet creatures to love and then takes them away.
  2. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    Thank you all very much for you words and thoughts. I don't have the words but all of them mean very much to me. There are times I feel like I can't cry and times I feel like I will never stop. In my head I know in time it will get better but my heart just feels like it is broken into a million pieces.
  3. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    I had to let Shana go yesterday. The Dr said her body was tired and was starting to shut down. They had to stick her twice to get the catheter in they couldn't even get a vein in the first leg. In what could only be a God wink, when I called my best friend Friday night to tell him what was going on his plane had just landed in Atlanta to get his connecting flight back home to N.C. He change his flight to Sat afternoon and came out here and was with me and her Friday night and yesterday when she left. We were roommates when Shana found me in 2000 and though he is allergic to cats he never had a reaction (except for visits to the vet with other cats around) until he moved in 2004. So he was there when she came into my life and he was there when she left it. I have not been alone in the house for over 18 years. I keep thinking I hear her in another room. I guess because she was the last, I didn't have this feeling when the others passed. They are all together now. I know I should pack up all the food and clean the litter boxes so I can donate them, but, I just can't seem to make myself. I look at her stuff and just break down. I feel like crap emotionally and physically, my muscles hurt, my chest is congested. My nose make sense because I keep crying. I just want to go to bed and snuggle up but there is no one to snuggle with me.
  4. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    Yall not good. Shana has only days left, maybe tomorrow. There have been several set backs this week and the Dr just said it depends when she see's her tomorrow. She said she was afraid she was going to tell me to bring her in when she called, but, Shana is doing better today and she said since was having a good day just love her and enjoy our time and her weight and demeanor will determine tomorrow, but, she said within the week. I am not sure I can make it through, but, I will not leave her to be alone when it happens.
  5. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    Who knew a message board about television would build communities of comfort and support for people needing it (not just pets, I see in the work thread and the family thread among others! I am so glad they allow the off-topic areas. :) I am so sorry about Olivia @emma675. @DeLurker I know you mean them, and there is no need for more. I see the likes to my posts and I know those are all well wishes and encouragement. Sometimes that's all I do because I don't feel I have the words to help someone. Conversely, sometimes I forget to like posts to me because I get so emotional about them :). Meanwhile, she has been grumpy and demanding all day - this is a good thing as that is her normal. When her daughter passed in June from cancer, my best friend said, "oh well, it's just two grumpy old women over at your place now" :)
  6. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    Thank you all for the purrs, leg rubs and sage words @Bastet the Dr. said the same thing about quality over quantity. And thank you for laying it out simply what Shana'a reality is. In my mind I do that know and that's the struggle that I am having to accept that its is enough and it is right. Several of you have said that this approach is right for her and deep in my heart as much as it hurts all I truly want is to do what is right by her. I am so lucky to have found this group whose experience and understanding is helping me accept I can't fix or change her path but I can make it as easy and happy for her as I can and that is enough for her.
  7. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. You all are amazingly comforting and supportive. Thank you all so very much. The nurse that gave her the binder yesterday said she purritoed her and that Shana didn't give her tooooo much trouble. It was in her inflection but there was a bit of a struggle. She is fantastic and has a special love for geriatric cats. I did call the local compounding pharmacy and the binders cannot be compounded. They compounded Shlomo's thyroid medicine into a cream I rubbed in his ear membranes and that worked great. I was really hoping they could to that with this too. In my mind I've come to the conclusion that as her being happy and behaving like herself is the most important thing. So, as some of you said, let her eat what she will eat and whatever makes her happy and not stress her (or me because she does react to me emotions) by fighting with her to medicate her myself or offer her only the prescription food. I do leave it out since it is dry and she nibbles some, but, for her main meals just give her what she wants. Getting my heart ok with the ramifications of what that means is a different story. Also, apparently feline kidney transplants is not a thing, and really if it was, would I want her to go through that. Since the meds were helping Shlomo I opted not to do the radiation because I felt it wasn't fair to him to have to be way from home for so long and them isolated when he came home. If only you could make them understand.
  8. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    It makes me feel better that so many of you have difficulty medicating your cats. Shana's kidney disease has progressed to stage 3 and her phosphorous is really high. We tried the powdered binder and it doesn't matter, on top of the food, under the food, mixed in with the food, I even tried putting the powder in her bowl the night before and putting another bowl on top of it so all she saw me do in the morning was put food in her bowl. She just refuses to eat, period. And she is only a little over 5 lbs, so, not eating is not an option. The liquid was even worse. I wound up having to put her in a pillow case and it was traumatic for both of us. Seriously, I am not exaggerating it was bad. The Dr said they will give it to her when she gets her fluids and that two doses a week is better than none. She also said that Shana fights it so hard that she did not want it to damage our relationship because she runs from me thinking I'm going to give her medicine. I feel like such a failure as a pet parent, but, the Dr said it is hard when there is just one person and one of the techs said she can't medicate her cat by herself. The Dr also said that she will not be here next October. Very sobering and upsetting. She said it won't be in the next few weeks and that as long as Shana still has her personality that is a very good thing. She said when she just lays there and lets them give the fluids we will have a serious talk. (it takes two of them to do it and as the Dr said, "she gives them what for" about it. I am trying to deal with this news. I knew it would happen at some point. I just thought that point was a long way off.
  9. tiftgirl

    Small Talk: Judge's Chambers

    Thank you all so very much! It means a lot to me that there are so many caring people who really get it. I tried mixing it with baby food, because when her daughter had what we thought was a bad tooth and had the extraction I got her baby food to eat. She looooooovvvvvveeed it. Miss Picky Shana liked it ok, so, I did try the binder in it and again, she just sat and looked at it. I will give mixing it in some tuna juice as @SRTouch suggested, she's never had sardines before and see if we make an progress that way. @PrincessPurrsALot the cashier never said anything when I was buying the baby food but she was giving me the stink eye, so, I felt obligated to explain so she didn't think I was not feeding a human baby well. :) She was not best pleased that I slept late this morning so I woke up to being wapped in the face with her paw and opened my eyes to her face about an inch from mine with that icy glare of "you are making me wait for breakfast and this is not acceptable!" :)
  10. tiftgirl

    Chit-Chat

    Well, I'm quite late and I'm sure your pet sitter filled you in, but,well, that's the Braves' one right - over by Cumberland? I'm right on the line of South Cobb and Douglas counties. We hard horrible strong rain and a tornado warning, but, no sirens. The path was straight across I-20 (of course). The worst of it seemed closer to Douglasville than Austell, so even further from you. I hope the babies weren't too traumatized and they are fine and you will be home with them soon.
  11. tiftgirl

    Small Talk: Judge's Chambers

    Oh Cat People (or really Pet People) I am so upset. I just got slapped with a big dose of reality. My cat is 18 years old and when she found me the vet estimated she was about six months old, so, we've been together forever. She's had kidney disease for a couple of years now, but, her numbers were staying pretty much the same and she was hovering between stage 1 and 2. She get fluid therapy 2 times a week to try to keep it that way and she has renal blood work done every three months. She had her blood work done Tuesday and the Dr. called with the test results. She is stage 3 and her phosphorous is really, really high. I cannot get the phosphorous binder into her. The powder, in, under, on top of the food it doesn't matter, she refuses to eat then. The liquid, the last time I wound up having to put her in a pillow case and neither of us came out of the unscathed. The Dr. said they will give it when she gets her fluid therapy so it will be 2 times a week instead of every day, but, she said, 1) she did not her to get so wigged out that it breaks our bond and she becomes scared of me or just hates me and 2) some is better than nothing. I asked her what the out look is and she said Well, she won't be her next October. But it is not going to be in the next few weeks either. She said as long as she is still feisty and giving the girls what for when she get her fluids (it takes 2 of them to do it) that she (the DR) is happy but when Shana just lays there and lets them do it we will have to have a serious talk. I just lost her daughter (that's her in my avatar over there) who was 17 in June to cancer. I am just so scared and upset. I am trying not cry because when I get upset Shana knows it because she comes and pets my face with her paw and head butts me and I don't want to get her upset. I know going by what the Dr. said it is not dire, but she basically said less than 12 months. I am sorry this is so long, I just needed to vent so people that understand and kind of try to wrap my head around it. Needless to say it's done wonders for my anxiety, but, so far (knock wood) it doesn't seem to have triggered my depression. Thanks for letting me just spew this all out.
  12. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    Seven years ago today the sweetest soul I have ever known crossed the Bridge. If he could have surgically attached himself to me he would have been over the moon. He was happiest when he could touch me and his momma (Shana) at the same time. He just radiated love and sweetness. Even in his last few minutes as sick as he was (he had liver failure, pancreatitis, and was septic) he tried to raise his little paw to pet my face. I still miss him.
  13. tiftgirl

    Pet(s): Photos & Discussion

    @MargeGunderson I am glad it was a peaceful passing and that you had such a lovely weekend together. I hope you and your family and the Younger are coping ok or as well as can be expected. I stole the below from another thread, but, it was posted to me, so I think that is ok. @CoderLady I am so sorry you are facing this.
  14. tiftgirl

    Small Talk: Judge's Chambers

    Than you very much. That is beautiful and so very true. I miss him everyday still.
  15. tiftgirl

    Small Talk: Judge's Chambers

    This!! When one of my cats passed away last year from congestive heart failure I called Chewy to cancel the recurring order for his prescription food for his liver. We had just gotten the most recent order a couple of weeks before and the lady said she would process a refund. I told her that I wasn't asking for a refund and had already opened on of the bags and was in no shape to deal with returning the other. To my amazement she said I didn't need to return it and could donate it or keep it for the girls if the vet said they could eat it, but, the refund was just to express their sorrow and understanding of what I was going through. She then started asking me questions about him and spent probably 30 minutes or so just talking to me about him and how I was coping. (he had been showing improvement so this was a shock and unexpected when it happened). The next week I got a hand written condolence card from her. I then called to tell a supervisor about this outstanding customer service and he was not surprised. He then spent quite a bit of time talking to me about my boy and the girls I still had and dealing with grief. He said I was welcome to call anytime, not just about orders, but if I just needed someone to talk to. He said they take helping their customers seriously and they had all experienced losing or having seriously ill pets and wanted to help in anyway they could. This was just the most outstanding customer care ( it went way beyond service) that I have ever experienced anywhere.
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