I just remembered the blind item posted a few pages back and that makes me think, if true, then it’s possible that shoplifting is just another way she maintains her "high" and she’s been doing it most of her life. Only this time, her behavior and notoriety have caught up with her and she can’t talk/buy her way out of it.
We’ve previously discussed Kim not being picky about the drugs she uses and I think she’s just a plain adrenaline junkie. Besides the booze and pills, it seem like doing things like shoplifting, stalking people in bushes with disguises on, race car driving, binge shopping, partying, gambling (poker), and probably any number of other risky behaviors give her a rush that she becomes addicted to. Some people have addictive personalities where they seek a high from just about anything and everything.
I think we all want her to “get it” and deal with herself and her issues, but the sad thing is that for many addicts, there is no bottom for which they hit and then realize they want/need to change. Some live their whole lives this way, and at depths which most cannot fathom being able to sustain. There’s absolutely nothing anyone can do as long as that person wants to stay down. If she’s too far gone mentally, then her family might be able to get her held temporarily until professionals can determine if she needs long term care, but that’s easier said than done. And even then, as I said in a previous post, that doesn’t mean she’s ever going to be consciously accepting of her situation or willing to change herself. We're only privy to a tiny fraction of her behavior and mindset, so she might not even be capable of that, who knows.
It’s such a sad situation and so frustrating for everyone who can only watch but who are helpless to “fix” it for her. I’m relieved to hear that Kyle, for whatever reasons, is apparently taking a step back. I can only imagine how painful that has been, but for her and her family’s sake, I’m glad she’s doing it.
This whole thing reminds me of a passage from one of my favorite and personally inspiring books, “Konx Om Pax”:
"So to get the noise out of my head, I took the little whip and whipped myself till all my blood poured down over everything, and I saw the whole house like a cataract of foaming blood rushing headlong from the flaming and scintillating Star of Fire that blazed and blazed in the candescent dome, and everything went red before my eyes, and a great flame like a strong wind blew through the House with a noise louder than any thunder could possibly be, so that I couldn't hold myself hardly, and I took up the sharp knives of the machines and cut myself all over, and the noise got louder and louder, and the flame burnt through and through me, so that I was very glad when my Prince said: You wouldn't think it, would you, sweetheart? But there are lots of people who stay here all their lives."