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I am going to visit my sister in Florida this week, I have been speaking to her quite a bit. 2 of our brothers voted for Trump and we just don't know how to get past it. It says something truly unpleasant about them. My oldest brother sent me a sarcastic "don't move to Canada" text that I haven't responded to and said something on one of my sister's Facebook posts that she did not respond to, but he later posted on her wall asking for forgiveness. I think he thinks he is just being a brat and doesn't understand but I can't make excuses for him. I had to shut down a couple of woman I work with on Wednesday who confirmed my opinion of their intelligence by being happy that Trump was elected. This election has just sucked all my optimism out of me. I am desperately afraid for my daughter, she is twenty in school part time and has serious problems with depression and anxiety, under Obamacare I am able to keep her on my insurance, if I am no longer able to do that I don't know what is going to happen. I think there will be a great deal of drinking on my sister patio this week. Hugs and vibes to us all.

I am in for Secret Santa, I just started vacation today. I am trying to be positive but I am scared out of my mind.

Seriously, fuck MS. Take care. buffyjunkie, I hope there is a smooth, stress free transition. I had vacation two weeks ago and don't even remember what it felt like. I am on my second 6day week in a row and it has been crazy at work. I am just exhausted and really need to have my daughter step up and do some cleaning and all I am getting is excuses, I am sorry but coming home after the cluster fuck that is my work day to a complete disaster and hearing the excuse that she didn't have time to pick up because she slept all day is not really making me happy.

I don't know how I am going to get through to the election, I work with a group of Fox News watchers who spout opinion based on complete misinformation as fact. They don't seem to understand that not everyone agrees with them. I know it is completely useless to argue with them. I just may cause myself permanent damage if I keep biting my tongue. Hope that everyone has a great weekend.

I have enjoyed the 1st two episodes of Orphan Black. I am still amazed by Tatiana Maslney's performances. Right before it came back on I decided to watch the first episode while on lunch at work and got my new coworker hooked, He is already through the first season? My daughter is getting into the swing of things at the community college, seeing as she didn't really go to high school it took her a bit to figure out how to be a student. A number of my coworkers are Fox News watchers, so I don't ever discuss politics at work but the other day they were talking about the "bathroom" bill in NC and I actually stated my opinion that a person should use the bathroom that most closely fits how they present and they have been giving me the side eye ever since. I may have blown my cover.

Has anyone watched The Passion of the Nerd video reviews of Buffy on youtube, they are quite good, he is about half way through season 3. It is taking him forever. I don't remember how my daughter slept as an infant, it was so very long ago and I am pretty sure I spent the first few years of her life catatonic, even if she wasn't. Super vibes for KPC.

KPC, all my best vibes are for you and Dad2, we never go wrong telling the people we love that we love them and why.

Just getting over an awful stomach bug. I wanted to post this on Facebook but decided against it, Was so sick the last 2 days I would only wish it on Donald Trump but he is so used to spewing shit he probably wouldn't notice. Vibes and thoughts for all.

So I got the reply from my ex regarding having him contribute to the costs of his daughter going to college. He thanked me for all I do, said he had no money because of egregious child support payments (which he stopped paying a year and a half ago) reminded me that he had gone bankrupt in 2005 (that was 11 years ago, right?) again because of those egregious child support payments, having nothing to do with the costs associated with the mail order bride who returned herself to the Ukraine. I can't help remember that this was a man who looked me straight in the face and with conviction told me that he was a race horse that I had strapped to a plow. Oh well I guess I will work all the OT available and hope not to burn myself out too badly. Vibes to all.

Hostile I wish your dad super healing powers and am glad it wasn't as bad as it could have been. The storm is going to pass south of us so we might get an inch. I am very happy about that. My daughter has started classes and I am already nervous about her falling behind and getting stressed and just blowing it and a considerable amount of money. Please send good study vibes. Her father finally replied to the email after I resent it and texted him to look at it. He said and I quote that he had sent a "quite a chunk of change" in October, That "chunk of change" was a check for $500 which was put toward the ticket for Alexa to go see his mother. The ticket was $790 plus of course there were traveling expenses which I of course covered. He owes me at least 3 grand in child support but that $500 was "quite a chunk of change". Vibes to all and Go Patriots!

Truly Madly Deeply, wrecked me. That and The Body are the truest representations of grief I have ever seen. The Body was on today, I don't know why I watched but I did. Yeah for new kitties. I sent the email, expectations are very very low.

Hi all I have a question for you, as you know my daughter's father is, well you know, but my daughter is entering community college, also she is currently in the midst of costly dental repair and I of course continue to feed, house, and clothe her as well as providing her with health insurance. Should I reach out to her father to see if he would care to throw a few bucks her way or is it just not worth the anger I will feel when he tells me he will not do it? Vibes to all,

I got my Secret Santa gift and it was marvelous, New England Patriot wine glasses, such a great gift combining 2 of my passions. Christmas was very low key, I cooked we ate, there were a couple of gifts, she liked the bit of clothing and make-up I got her and I love the bathrobe she bought me. We did have a bit of a blow up on Xmas eve because she didn't get the cleaning done and the tree never got up and she got made at me because when I got home I wanted to just finish a couple of things and get the trash out and she just wanted to keep telling me she would do it like she had for the 3 weeks she was suppose to be cleaning the house.But I put it behind me, no use being pissy. She spoke to her 90 year old grandmother, who she visited in October, her grandmother asked if she had done anything about her weight problem. Way to go grandma, she will without a doubt call you more often for all that lovely fat shaming and emotional abuse, now I know where her son got it from. She could stand to lose a couple of pounds and get in better shape, but you know when she was really thin, she was suicidal, so I will take the couple of extra pounds. I have to work today, it sucks.

My computer has been sucking, so I am blaming that on my lack of posting, also my life. I am however taking full responsibility for being a sucky Secret Santa, my poor victim will be getting gifts, but they will be late, not together and without gift wrap or any cute note hiding my identity, My Secret Santa gift has arrived, but I am being a good girl and waiting for Christmas to open it, it might be my only gift. My daughter says she is getting me something (I have been hinting for a bathrobe because the one I have is actually older than my daughter) but I am not holding my breathe. She is also suppose to clean the house and that hasn't happened yet, so no tree is up at domicile dusky. Yeah, to Erratic. that is truly awesome, My daughter is enrolling in the local community college in January, taking a couple of courses and getting her feet wet, I am very excited that she is finally doing something and more than a little nervous that I am about to pay a couple of thousand dollars and have her say after a month that she just couldn't do it. Work is work, right now we have a really horrible temp that is not only completely incapable of doing the job, but has a bad attitude, doesn't ask questions and is rather misogynistic. So a really fun package. I also work with a bunch of Fox News watchers, which is stressful, I had a coworker say that he needed to go buy a gun because of Syrian refugees. I want to say something but it just isn't worth it, you know facts don't register with Fox News watchers. As far as health goes, I am old and fat and my back hurts more often than it should, and I am often very very tired, but I seem to have flown through menopause without even 1 hot flash, so yeah me. I will probably not go see Star Wars.

I am in, so very very in.

Super vibes to the incredible Barphe

I just need to put this out there somehow, and here is of course the safest place on the whole wide world of web. This June is when my daughter would have graduated high school if everything had gone the way it is supposed to. She has here GED and is doing so much better than she was but part of me is so sad, I should be posting prom pics and graduation anouncements, and trying to figure out how to pay for college. I was waiting to pick up some food yesterday and was looking at the paper and they had the listing for the graduating class of her high school, and I saw the names of her old friends and wondered how there parents were feeling. Oh well it is what it is. Super parenting vibes to Erratic and pain vibes to AnnieF take care everyone.

Tiny Tiny Babies. vibes and congragulations, I am sure it is overwhelming but you will do great.

In first world problem news, my voice activated TV remote is not working and I am annoyed. I got my daughter to agree to watch Veronica Mars and 5 minutes in she got a phone call and bailed on me, she did say it was a really good five minutes. Yesterday it was 90 degrees today it is 60, WTF. I have dental insurance and KPC is right it is a joke, that 6 grand is after insurance. I am able to do a payment plan thing without interest for 18 months, so I just need to find $300 a month in my budget, that shouldn't be hard, I am rolling in extra cash, right? Happy birithdaay LnB. Vibes and whatnot to everyone.

Erratic, I have a really good friend who entered a program to foster to adopt, when they imagined what they would get they saw themselves with one girl, what they ended up with were 2 boys, one of whom had been so badly abused he was thought to be unplaceable. Just a couple of years later, the boys have been adopted and my friend couldn't be happier, he is such a dad now. I honestly don't know how they did it but they did and if you decide this is what you want I know you can too. In other news my daughter needs $6000 in costly dental repair, What do you think, will her father chip in? yeah right! Vibes to all and sundry, I have been reading along just haven't been able to post much. Love you guys.

So sorry for your loss AnnieF. take care,

Someday I will get to San Francisco. So I want an opinion. I work with a woman who has been with the company quite a bit longer than I have and has taken on some aditional responsibilities. She is also opinionated and always sure she is right. She has brought up a couple of mistakes I have made while when I come across one of her errors I simply fix it and move on. She is also a Fox news watcher and tends to be vocal about her politics while I don't feel that is appropriate in the work place. If she expresses out and out bigotry I will call her on it but otherwise I don't want to engage. How would you guys handle this. I am thinking the next time I come across an error I will bring it up but other than that I don't know what else to do.

cko, all my love and concern and wonderous vibes are coming your way. I haven't been here much lately but you people mean the world to me, My life has just been my life, I have been kinda just slogging through it. Nothing really bad nothing really good, just kind of gray. I need to find some joy in my life, I can't just keep waiting for joy to find me. I saw the picture cko posted of her dad and thought there was a man who had lived a full good life and I need to do the same. I have the week of June 14th off, if anyone here is interested in seeing me I will arrange it. I will be on Long Island on August 7th for my cousin's wedding if anyone would like to meet up around that time, I will make it work. I may make a Plenty of Fish profile. You all have been amazing friends and I will not neglect this place any more. Having you awesome people in my life makes my life awesome.

Winter has kicked my ass, so sorry for being MIA. Erratic, I am so hapy for you as you begin your new adventure. My friends who went the foster to adopt route just officially adopted their 2 boys. Those boys hit the parent lottery just as any children placed in your home will as well. I just found out that they are closing the office I just transfered to. We will see what happens, it is a way off. My birth song was Theme from a Summer Place (yes I am that old) wasn't that the song that figured heavily in Oz's romantic fantasy. The last coupld of years I have gone away for my birthday in early April but I think this year there will still probably be mountain sized snow banks. Also money seems to be a little tighter than I would like, I haven't been getting any overtime and though it has been great not working 6 days a week I miss the money. I will try to be better keeping up in hear, (I have been reading but not posting) love you guys.

Super vibes to LnB and CKO for dealing with aging parents, not easy. I am completely buried in snow. We lucked out this time and only got about 8 inches but it is super cold and windy. They have closed the office 3 times in the last 3 weeks, they very rarely close the office. I have had a cold and now my daughter has the cold, I would rather have the cold 3 times as long than have my daughter have the cold, she is a whiny miserable sick person. I would like to complain more about this frickin' winter but I know people are dealling with worse. Just please can it be spring.