Keep watching & you will be rewarded, although we never see her debate going or staying, but we do see where she feels she belongs. Do you think she is in love with Jamie now? I saw you introduce yourself, & my suggestion is to read the first 2 books after you watch these 2 seasons, but don’t read ahead of the show. I find it’s better to be surprised by the show events than to have book expectations. When you read them after the fact, it fills in some things, & you find out some events happened differently, but you are already in love with Jamie, so it won’t matter!