KnoxForPres

Yes! He was slicing his own bread- which surprised me in a way. But it’s like three or four slices width wise were close to the heel and he said, fuck it, calling that a slice. Holly seems so detached. She seemed a huge people pleaser but not in a mitigating way. She liked to look at people giving her good advice with wide eyes and a hint of humor but it all felt fake. I’m pretty new to this show so have seen eh, maybe 7 or so- but I’ve seen some real self loathing or denial. She seemed liked you could wind her up on her back to “play normal person”. Which in retrospect makes me incredibly sad but yet- I couldn’t connect with her all and sadly didn’t care what happened. The only thing I had great interest in was Zack the dog and his sweet loyalty. I do feel they do little Z right.

Ugh! I hate that we’re out here wondering. That is weak writing indeed. I reach a point where I don’t care. Was I supposed to care about the Barcelona storyline? Bc I care more about debating cheese on hash browns. (Always a yes) We need answers. Suicide by massive debt -but!I I let my hot secretary know about apartment blocks and desire for others to get a restaurant. There are sweet children here- connect some dots. When you think of really great shows that have things happen (Mad Men comes to mind) I wish we’d all get together and throw in a few bucks and we could make a story. That people get paid for this....nothing- and worse I’m watching.

This song has got me through a lot of times. You gotta wear those shoes

The only engagement party that involves tea bags without innuendos would be with the Bates. They’re like the gift that keeps on giving. Im with @zenme Carlin is the epitome of optimism. And she’s very beautiful. She’s very close to a lot of men’s dreams come true in a way. Myself if you masked yourself and burst into song to let me know you were going to propose I’d be apt go “what the fuck is happening.” If you then rolled out a luggage piece that still had the 29 dollar price or whatever I’d really start feeling weird.

Today was a big day and I feel we got hopeful news. Turns out there was cancer in both ovaries and cyst had erupted. All markers they took were negative for cancer. He wants her to undergo 18 weeks of chemo to lessen her chances of return. He called it palliative and her wish and she said yes. She’ll lose her hair and all that comes with chemo but this is good I feel! My god ovarian cancer is a scary search even if you keep it to the Cleveland/Mayo clinic types which I did(I was the only one to look this up including have a librarian in the family- but I get it). So this is good! Her spirits are high and ready to take it on.

Have mercy I have such a crush on Justin.

I didn’t mean to put brake lights on this good conversation and am sorry if it came off that way. I think I have different views and that’s ok. I’ll become a reader/non poster on this sub forum and wish all of you nothing but happiness and success- however that is defined :)

They may be. Which makes me a little sad Clint must have answered “a line dancing bar-which peaked in popularity in 2003- complete with empty dance floor and odd people staring” when asked his desired wedding venue.

Take it one day at a time. You kids can discuss and decide what are best next steps and options but as DeLurker said, who is always wise, take care of yourself. And having a good solo cry of the why is this happening variety has been cathartic for me in my life.

I had not thought of this but holy cow you are spot on and I can’t stop laughing. I think Clint smoked crack. Possibly for the first time. His demeanor and reactions were so strange- even for him. But yeah bud, when an addict gets a taste they’ll hit the streets for more. These people get involved with additcted felons but it’s like they assume they’ll come out reformed and wholesome. Hell they could watch a few Interventions as a crash course to prepare for release. The naiveness/stupidity on this show is scary. I do have compassion for Caitlin. She wants a normal relationship but again, expects a twelve time felon to live up to the demand. Im sure Matt thought she was cute which she is (though looks have gone down since release) but I wish he had passed on her knowing he has no intent to be a responsible adult. Silly of me on that wish, I know. Michael acting as if he’s in a unique situation that requires tactical moves and missions makes me exhausted. I care so little about those three but do have an investment in that ridiculously cute child and want only good for her. I think you can in possible slang or maybe it’s a real term “flatten your bid” where you don’t use good time, etc and release without probation or parole. I wonder if maybe some of them did that hence the on camera drinking, etc. Otherwise I’m at a loss for words if they’re violating on tv.

You shouldn’t feel bad about it but you need to see your place in this and what you do and do not have control over. You’re in control of you- and just you. Not her, not her health. You’re also not a victim. You’re a fully able (to my knowledge this forum is long so if you’re disabled I apologize) working adult, yes? Work gives us such a sense of purpose and satisfaction. I’m an animal lover and would probably get on Amazon and have found head gear to wear- but growing up as a kid our neighbor in Baltimore had birds and admittedly I was scared but they were sweet. Is it that mean? Is there no cage? Most problems have solutions. Let’s work through this. As a whole forum.

I’d stop paying your dads phone bill, I’d completely leave your mother in law to your husband and I’d just stop- full stop. It’s heavy to read it much less live it. They’re in control and can handle as necessary- brother is hard but you can deal with as needed too. The other- Is what your doing working? Are they getting it? Nothing seems to change so give that part of you to them and for real let it go. Breathe out and in your car or room yell I am done with it. And mean it. Unless you have a better idea I see you have to either stop or lessen it. Do you agree?

Im thinking like where Shakespeare did his original plays? Do we have to be so serious? As a general rule people like to have fun! Like lots of fun. We laugh, have great sex, just have a damn good time. I’d check seriousness at the door. Go out- live life. This isn’t directed to you but all this seriousness. Life is way better.

That’s my dog. And yes, it’s true. I asked earlier at some point in this thread if they knew of a help but no one did. It’s horrible. Knoxie goes and has gone on long walks and they just won’t wear them down. I’ve scoured the Internet like you wouldn’t believe. I can also give PSA. I went to brunch one Sunday and I still get a Christmas stocking as an adult and the goods were on a table in a bag (!) and we determined Knoxie had eaten 15 plus mini Reese cups, 10 Hershey kiss, and maybe 20 other bite size- all milk chocolate upon return. Well- as you can imagine that scared me. They asked how much, when, what kind. I told them and they were like can you get here in 30 minutes and time matters. Whole thing was insane. They have an IV which forces them to puke and she apparently puked a ton of chocolate and foil wrappers. Whole thing cost me 118 which I felt was a bargain as they treated her as “get her here now”. What I learned is bakers or unsweetened chocolate is no joke. Semi sweet should also be taken seriously. And size of dog matters. I probably would have been ok not taking her but consider scarred but smarter.

Yes to you and @theredhead77. I guess I was raised and surrounded very much by traditional courting but I’ve made it to 39 and always lived alone with a cat or a dog. I’ve never had a roommate outside of college.I never dreamed or cared about a wedding. I find them a waste of money (solely to me- not to people that do care and long for that- including my beloved sister). So- I kind of sit on the conversation. I’m not rushing to the altar. Like right now I’m sitting alone with my dog going to watch Dirty John (listened to podcast so spoiled) and I’m blissfully happy. So it’s two fold. I love this guy so much and have never had feelings like this before- but I’m ok. We don’t want kids so that’s not a worry. I Iive downtown and moving in with him takes me to the suburbs. I’m far from unhappy. I think that’s why initially I said I’m equal hesitant- because I am. @BuyMoreAndSave Seems like a shit ton of resentment you’re carrying. Maybe a big deep breath and let some of that go? Do what you can and and just a whew - big exhale- it’s gone. And resolve yourself to it.

Thank you. I took your advice and told him please be back by the the 21st because we will have the party of all times or it will be hard but I need and want you here and he said he will be back by then! He got it. Thanks @DeLurker

No- sorry , male all are straight.

Such wise, kind, and thoughtful words. Thank you. So much. This board has been active so anyone and all who said such kind words- thank you. On task I can speak for myself. I’m 39 will be 40 in May dating a guy going on 3 years now. I’m never married, no kids. He’s divorced once - no kids. He’s 38. What I find interesting is I get outside pressure (geographically I’m in the South) of “have you looked at rings!” No, however he has brought that up. I find myself equal excited and hesitant so I don’t push it. I suppose I should. He has a very nice truck and in the last year has put easy 15 grand into an “off-road vehicle” that be bought. I felt a bit slighted. This has involved hours of research, message board talk etc. I find myself wishing he he had that gusto for me he does a vehicle. And to bring it full circle he’s set to go on a camping trip with a new found friend (who’s 23- sweet little kid I’ve met) but this trip ventures into January 21st when we learn if my sister can breathe a sigh of relief they got it all- or not. I’d like him to be with me but he doesn’t seem to get that. I’ve done the hinting a normal person would and can tell he’s not getting it. Maybe it’s a girl thing? I feel like if his brother of all our same age had that I’d want to be there. More I post here I realize it’s just like a way for me to get shit out. And I’m grateful for it.

Yes- not only local but able to work from home at her house if needed . Which has been awesome. We binged watched Dirty John these last two days. The guy won’t give you a ring hits a hit real oh shit for me- so I’ll watch and see what happens I’m there!

Thank you very much. She’s the kindest person in the world who gave my parents no grief and me, well, I was the wild child. I see myself in @SuzyRhapsody daughter. Oh Suzy, I was given every path to have an amazing life and made it hard, so hard. But I did it. I definitely had some low times in my 20s (though didn’t seem that way at the time- felt adventurous) but today at 39 I have my bachelors and have been gainfully employed at current job for 12 years with promotions, raises etc. I had a great backbone, as your daughter does which always whispered “you can be so much more”.

Reading all of this is a lot. And I wish I had the wisdom to know what to say. But I arrive here today for a different reason and just need anonymity to get it out. My sister had a large ovarian cyst that required removal and a recommended total hysterectomy. The procedure was yesterday and during the surgery the doctor discovered ovarian cancer of the right ovary . She is 44 and has 2 children 12 and 14- and thankfully a wonderful husband. The hope is they got it all with removal of the malignant ovary but they took multiple specimens which in two weeks (!) we will know more. This is so unexpected. We all thought this would be routine and I’m desperately trying to repeat “She Will be fine” in my head countered by driving around and having moments of terror. I don’t really need responses as much I need to get out I’m scared and very hopeful. The general vibe is “positivity! Prayers!” Which I agree with but this just knocked the wind out of me and I am scared. Thanks

I don’t know that I can keep up with show much longer. There is so much “it’s so special to live close and have times where we can just get together and enjoy each other” with saccharine smiles that I feel like I watch the same episode every time. It’s off putting to me this season that it hasn’t been in the past. It feels like they are projecting perfection hard. A level of “thou doth protest too much” Also- I find all the fiancées/boyfriends tp be damn near interchangeable. I live in TN and am not surrounded by toothy kind of weird acting people. Carlin’s intended looks like he could be the hairdressers intended brother. The outlier is Tori’s husband who looks and acts- normal. Poor guy. He was a damn adorable baby and she’s concerned about the head of hair. You could tell that stung a bit and he handled like a champ which made me sad. Whitney and her hysterics of forgiveness and shame and tears is beyond weird. I think we’re dealing with people who have either had major things happen- or minor- can’t tell but somehow she’s to apologize. It doesn’t sit right with me and seems off. As an aside, we grew up with a few families who had four kids and were actually wealthy but it was a known you get water at meals. Ever noticed these cats always have teas and sodas? It’s not really a big deal at all but I mention it bc I always think of it. I know production likely pays or comped, but I still see parents going “sweet tea” knowing it’s not on their dime.

Here’s hoping (and agreeing) Eliza Dolittle she is not. She has an almost zen like quality about her. I hope she finds someone who will let her take leisurely showers before looking at mermaid gift shops and oral sex. Im grateful Marcel(Idon’t care spelling) showed his true colors early. She was accepting and appreciated everything. Even the green dress she was funny yet thoughtful about. All he had to be was kind. And he was a controlling, food stealing dick instead which she handled perfectly. So ole Clint’s girl was a “bombshell” big boobed blonde in pics and comes out out a two tone haired candy corn teeth woman. The audience gasps “shit! He was catfished!” Clint says “she’s so much more beautiful in person”. And then proceeds to drop money on her. I found the salon online and women’s cuts start at 85+ and I feel they did 350 plus on her hair. They did a good job. Is the ginger named Caitlyn with Matt? They are just a train wreck. As said above when he realized she’s the best he can get so he not it broke my heart. She’s neurotic to be sure but cute enough to steal some guys heart-though realize this bar is very low. The player just bores the hell out of me. It’s like if you watch A Million Little Things. I knows there’s a twist- and I don’t give a shit.

On Daily Mail they posted Chris Watts (the one who murdered his wife and daughters) is getting multiple letters from women. They post some of the actual letters as well as some pics the women have sent (they block the eyes). I’d like to think people figure out who they are and they feel immense shame. But I’m not sure. Anyway- what a weird phenomenon. He put his adorable innocent children in oil barrels and they’re professing love and offers of friendship. I can imagine Scott Peterson gets his fair share of love letters. What a world we live in.

Yeah I know the title and what she said. My real question is why did he make post release plans? It doesnt make sense to me. I have a hard time believing if it’s even true that 12k went to phone calls. I bet it’s been, cough, commissary money. So he could have “Fritos” (bartering or who knows what) bc he quote hates the food they serve and needs some money for only wholesome reasons! Its just so manipulative across the board. And the outsiders love the control and the letters:/calls so I’m not sure who’s to blame. One thing you can take to the bank. Should I ever fall in love with an inmate, I won’t go to the exterior of the yard as an attempt to feel closer. Its like they reach a low and then go yaaahhhh I can get a little lower.