Don't want to say the trite "thoughts and prayers" but my heart really aches for you. 💔 This virus, the repercussions, it didn't have to be this way. (Not going to get political, that's a can of worms I have no energy for). If people would just do the simple things, wear the damn mask, limit social gatherings. Life doesn't have to stop but it has to change, at least for awhile.
School MUST start next month and as a 60 year old I'm not looking forward to it. We were told in June when we turned in our keys that the building was strictly 'masks' everywhere, no gatherings of more than 5 people in a classroom, go to your assigned area, do what you have to do, leave. NONE of that happened. One other person had a mask, groups of teachers standing around talking, close together, hugs, laughter. I was so uncomfortable, I had to get the heck out. Our school has nearly 1500 people, during class changes it's absolute madness. I don't know if I can do it. Besides my age, being overweight and having a history of pneumonia and bronchitis, my son has many, many serious health issues. Not the least of which is being immuno-compromised due to a psoriasis medication that suppresses his immune system. Not having taken it since January has hopefully allowed him to build up some immunity, but who knows. Of course now the psoriasis is rampant, and getting worse. So if/when I do go back, I will have to do as my husband has done all along since he's been working this whole time, wear a mask at home, keep myself as isolated as possible from my son. But that's not going to be easy, our home living areas are open and no spare bedroom so I've been sleeping on the couch for months so my husband can have the bed since he's been working and I haven't. I don't know how I'll be able to work and come home and keep my family safe, from me. That's what kept me up last night, the constant worry of 'what if' and 'what can I do?'.