THAT WAS SO UNCOMFORTABLE!
Talk about a divisive episode! Since I love them all, I'm having a hard time condemning anyone for their actions. But it's just so hard to see them all be right (to some extent) and yet all be so unhappy with what is happening! I take some comfort in the knowledge that we are SUPPOSED to be unhappy/uncomfortable/unsettled. There is not a simple, good solution if you like all the characters. Now if you hate X or Y, then it's easier to say a particular outcome should happen. But I think they did a good job of making me feel conflicted.
Having said all this...
I can totally see WHY they put him in the box. I can totally see WHY it was damaging to their own mental well-being to do so.
Dean - his speech at the wake was perfect -- until you realized that he's just going through the motions. How is he even breathing at this point????? And the scene in the woods was good but insufficiently cathartic. He's still so ANGRY. And rightly so. I'm not remotely judging him for his anger. That anger is earned! But I feel like he's hanging on by a thread. It feels like at each step he's trying to do the right thing but in the meantime there's this defeaning howl going on inside him. It feels like everything he's saying is carefully controlled because if he opened his mouth uninhibited, he'd never stop screaming. I'm just in agony for this guy. And then there was the confrontation w/ Jack. "Accident". I nearly stopped breathing when Dean repeated the word. And the look on his face as he 'smiled' while Jack was going into the box? While Dean was clearly terrified of Jack letting loose, the look on his face was f*cking SCARY. Jensen Ackles is so very gifted. Dean is NOT okay. Not remotely. I don't know how to GET him okay. And I think Sam knows it. I think Sam wasn't sure at the beginning but he sees it now.
Sam- it hurt just to watch him. He was so openly grieving and 'not okay.' Where Jensen brought the pain via anger, Jared brought the pain via sorrow. I do think Sam is coping better about Mary but I felt like Sam was damaging his own soul as he talked Jack into the box. This is like torture porn but it's with feels instead of saws. I was glad he voiced he didn't know if he could live with Jack in the box. So on the one hand, I think he too is at a loss on what to do and could rationalize what they did, on the other hand, I think his instinct that this was fundamentally not a long-term viable solution is spot on.
Cas - Bless him for protecting Mary & John's heaven. It seems like every freakin' time an angel gets put in charge, their petty power trip goes to their head. In this case it's Duma who started to settle grievances. But Cas is just so determined to save Jack. And when everyone else is looking at him like he (Cas) has lost his mind, Cas just won't give up. I admire that. I admire that as much as he loves the brothers, he called them out on manipulatiing Jack. Because that's the part that blows -- that Jack went into the box trusting Sam and Dean were telling him the truth. Again, I don't blame them for lyiing. Mary didn't lie. Mary was atomized. But I can simultaneously accept why the boys had to lie and yet whole heartily agree that manipulating Jack was inherently a bad thing.
Jack - Jack is a f*cking mess. Alex does a great job of showing him 'fake' sincerity and yet also be sincere. Duma knew JUST how to manipulate him. And Jack was so eager to please the Winchesters. That wasn't false. He wanted them to make it all better and go back to when he felt like family. And yet as Jack talked to them about "the accident", it range so HOLLOW. I honestly didn't know who scared me more tonight - Jack or Dean. Obviously Jack has all the power, but that's not the part that scared me. What scared me was the carefully controlled mask that they were wearing and how well the actors showed us the 'mask' versus a ton of other thoughts/feelings under the mask. Jack is also not okay. And yet it's a completely different 'not okay' than Dean's 'not okay'.
Yes, I find myself highly conflicted.
- Did Jack really make angels out of people? Is that going to last?
- Is Naomi really in a cell?
- With Duma dead, who is #292304980987413 on the list to be "in charge of Heaven" now???
I watched this episode twice already. I want next week to come right away so I don't have to sit with this 'not okay' place that TFW is in right now.